L.W.Z

Update

2010-09-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

alright im back to blogging. been kind of bz for the last few wks working odd jobs here n there.
i dont know why but despite working. i still feel v broke. probably becos i had spent most of my hard earned $$ on a new laptop. cost me $1100. that's almost equivalent to 2 mths of my salary working as a not so hardworking promoter. lol! :X
i rmb i did mention about a warehse/logistic job n an admin job on my last post right? ok 1stly. guess what happen to the warehse/logistic job? omg.. that bugger flew my kite! eff him man srsly. he didnt even bother to inform me that the job was canceled. wasted my time.
next is the admin job. i was selected for the admin job at cpf bldg. n it was a holy shit experience.
u know everyday from as early as 830am to 6pm. i sit at my desk n all i did was just sorting papers! that's right. i sort papers from mon to fri. 8.5 hrs everyday.
n everyday when i go to work. all i see is piles n piles of papers on my desk n a white wall that im facing. can u imagine the agony n torment i have to go thru. i feel so emo when i was working there. with no 1 to talk to since every1 is bz with their own work. srsly it was a pure torture!
n so. aft 2 wks. i quit the cpf admin job. cant stand it anymore. becos there's more to life than just sorting papers for 6.5 bux per hr everyday.
aft that i went for those kind of event jobs. i was working at this conference event at marina mandarin hotel. was paid $6/hr with meals provided. n by meals i mean 5 star hotel food. yummy yum yum! :D
n then i also got this $7/hr wkend htc promoter job. i worked for 1 wkend n was fired since then. becos the boss feels that i dont have the "right working attitude". srsly it was total crap. i didnt even know what i did. 1stly he doesnt gives instructions clearly. n aft that when i clarify with him. he'll give me that fcuked up face n scold me for asking stupid qns. totally absurd.
that was my 2nd time that i got fired if i didnt rmb wrgly. the 1st time was a few yrs back when i working at a cafe n i failed to meet the "standard waiter's requirements" set by the cafe boss. another weirdo.
ok now like what i've mentioned earlier. i did bought a new laptop at the comex event n sold my old 1 away. i went n downloaded a few games like prototype n borderlands n played intensively for almost the whole of last wk. n now im getting bored of it alr. lol. becos i've completed the storyline of the games. im a pro huh? hahahaha! n my next game is gg to be fifa11 that is gg to come out soon. woohoo! im v excited! XD
the reason why i went back to intensive gaming is becos i feel that this may be my last chance that i'll be happily gaming with no worries. i dont know how to elaborate it but in short. i dont c myself gaming aft i step into the working world. instead i'll be working v hard n taking my work srsly b4 i find myself a rly gorgeous gal n maybe get married? lol! ok just ignore the latter part. :P i almost forgot. i need to go SIM biz course 1st b4 i can find a rly gorgeous gal. hahahaha! XD
i think this sums up on what i've been doing for the past few wks. 1 more mth to enjoy b4 i get enlisted. hmm i think i'll be looking damn awesome aft i go thru army. imagine me with the sexy tanned skin n well toned muscles from head to toe. omg.. im gg to be irresistible! hohohoho!
to be continued.. ;)

Rotting..

2010-08-13T20:01:00.009+08:00

u know. if u ever see me updating my blog frequently. it just means that im effing free. lol!
every1 seems to be bz with their work n stuffs. both my parents got to go to work. while 2 of my younger brothers has got sch to attend. n here i am rotting at home. zzz..
i've been thinking a lot of what should i do during this free time. i srsly dont want to sit in front of the laptop the whole day. i'll become an idiot sooner or later if i continue doing this.
i got no gals to date. i cant ask the guys out either becos they got work n their own commitments. so when i go out i usually go out alone. sounds v emo huh? it's ok. im used to it haha.
honestly this is my 1st time that i got no 爱情 in my heart. i've always been in love with some1 for the past 12 yrs since pri sch. but now it's just an empty room. a vacuum. n worse i dont have a "target". that's y i say. i need to go to SIM biz course. lol!
anw i finally got myself a job. tho it's only a temporary 1. going to do warehse/logistic stuffs from 17 to 20 aug. 8 bucks per hr! woohoo! n also. i've applied for some admin jobs in the banking sector. hopefully i'll be shortlisted. hmm see how it goes.
almost forgot. i went to my 1st picnic at marina barrage a few days ago. it's a gd experience. got my 1st experience flying a kite as well. i successfully flew the kite to it's maximum height until some bugger hit my kite n aft that the kite got tangled n couldnt fly anymore. damn it.
ok i'll stop here for now. becos today's the friday the 13th. lol! to be continued.. hohoho!

Job Hunting.. Again.

2010-08-10T17:12:00.000+08:00

ok. i've quit working as a CKJA promoter. well i dont have anything against it. just want to quit n move on to sth else. but on the contrary. i dont know what i want to do next. lol! i guess im fine with any kind of job as long as it meets my criteria - a gd pay n reasonable working hrs.
i went online to see if is there any gd jobs available n there r a few. n out of the few. 2 of them r the exceptionally gd ones that got my interest.
the 1st 1 is an logistic asst job. i emailed to the person in charge but he/she didnt reply me. zzz.. the other 1 is an events helpers job. just sent the email few hrs ago. hopefully the person in charge will give me gd news asap.
i did went for the charles n keith interview a few weeks ago. n they rejected me for the 2nd time haha! the 1st time was back in 2007. when DS n i went for the interview aft our O levels. doesnt matter now anw.
the reason y i got rejected is becos they wanted me to work 10 hrs EVERYDAY for the whole of 3 months. n upon hearing this i straight away point them the middle finger. lol!
well not literally but i this is what i told them: "i believe that there must be a balance between work n play. furthermore im not in desperate need for $$. i just want to temporary work in the retail line for the experience. anw i think it's ok. thank u for the time." sth like this. n then that lady got the face to tell me that she'll call me back again. what kind of nonsense is that?
in summary. i rejected them. HAHAHAHA! X)
that's all for now. to be continued..

矛盾

2010-07-07T00:51:00.003+08:00

有时候口口声声地对自己说：

“我玩得起。输了没关系。”

又或者是，

“没社么大不了。我拿得起，放得下。”

但心里却依依不舍。很不好受。超级不爽。

算了。我懒得去管这么多。

不重要的东西也不需要想这么多。

June Update

2010-07-05T17:27:00.000+08:00

i guess it has become a norm that my blog is updated once in a blue moon. lol. so yep. im back again! :D
initially i wanted to wrote this entry in chinese. but i realise that it's kind of difficult for me to do that. havent been using my mother tongue for like 3 yrs plus. omg. i srsly need to brush up my chinese language!! :(
alright. continue from my previous entry. i was being shortlisted for the esprit job despite screwing up the interview. anyway it wasnt me who screwed up the interview. it was that HR lady! but in the end i rejected their offer becos the pay is too little.
CKJA (calvin klein jeans n accessories) then called me a few days later as DS recommended me to them. went for the interview n discussed the details. feel that the pay is acceptable n so i went for the job. but it was later on i found out that the working hrs n schedule over there is horrible!!
the company always wanted me to work full shifts due to lack of manpower. i even agreed to work full shifts for 3 consecutive days for them at the beginning when i was just an obedient n innocent employee. obviously it wasnt a v gd experience for me.
but subsequently. i learned more about the company from 1 of the more experienced promoter there. he's the 1 who taught me the tricks n stuffs. n from then on. i have become the 1 who arrange my own work schedule instead of them. ;)
i've stay in the company for 1 mth plus alr. getting paid 6 bux per hr to slack. but most probably im going to quit at the end of july. no particular reasons. again i just want to explore more options n gain more experience. from sunglasses to handbags. maybe im going to move on to perfumes or watches next or some other stuffs.
actually im thinking of working as a private investigator. i mean isnt it a v cool job?? following ppl around like some kind of secret agent. catching those men or ladies in adultery act. woohoo! sounds exciting right? lol! ok it's a just a random thought haha.
working stuffs aside. i almost forgot that im officially 20 yrs old alr. GQ organised a gathering for the june babies of 4A06 class at minds cafe a few days ago. had fun over there playing board games with free flow of snacks n drinks. also got to thank GQ for the cake she baked n the little pineapple cookie that penguin gave me. i dont know if it's called a cookie or not but it taste sweet. v sweet indeed. :)
ok i'll stop here for now. to be continued..

Once In a Blue Moon Update.. :O

2010-05-14T16:53:00.000+08:00

sometimes. i wish that some1 can be there to help me up whenever i fall down. well it's not like i cant get up on my own. i was thinking maybe the process of getting up can be faster if there's some1 there to help. but well. i guess im used to it anyway. i can get up on my own.
life recently is kind of monotonous. not much ups n downs. perhaps due to the restriction of NS. im having mixed feeling for NS. i dont know whether i should be excited or worried. im stuck in between. lol.
i've quit the telemarketer job in search for a more "interesting" job. just want to explore more options since im v free now.
n so i was working as a sunglasses promoter for the past 2 weeks at the takashimaya square event. made a few new friends n realise that making new friends can be such a joy. though i didnt get to know any gorgeous gals. :X but it's ok. there's always another chance haha.
now the bad news. the end of the event = the end of my sunglasses promoter job. i do hope the company will call me back to work with them again. but it's v unlikely since im going to NS soon. :(
moving on from there. i went for the esprit interview. this may be the 1st time i've ever screwed up an interview. but on the other hand. this is also the 1st time i've met such a pathetic interviewer.
she doesnt has any courtesy - no greetings from her at all n all she gave was a not so sincere smile. she gave me those kind of dead fish handshake. the questions she asked were not v clear. n most shocking of all. she's in the HR department!
shocking stuff aside. u know what. i saw a gorgeous gal during the interview session! lol. but she walked away to somewhere while the people r waiting for their turn to be interviewed. n i didnt saw since then. sigh.. 有缘无份. :(
anyway. i doubt i'll be going into a relationship any time soon even if i met the right gal. once again becos of NS. u know. no ordinary BGRs can withstand the test of NS. unless u got those kind of v rare girlfriend who's fiercely loyal n faithful to u.
hmm it's been some time since i wrote sth in chinese. so maybe my next entry will be written in chinese. interesting huh? :)
to be continued..

Lonely. Different. Unknown.

2010-03-21T10:47:00.000+08:00

u know when u've graduated from poly. life suddenly looks v real. becos this is the point of time when u have to make ur own decision that is going to determine ur destiny. n u cant run away from responsibility like how u do when ur in primary/secondary school or poly.
19 yrs of earthly life. i came to realise that the most reliable person is none other than urself. forget about ur friends or relatives for a moment. becos ur the only 1 who is going to shape ur life. ur friends r not going to do it for u. neither ur family members. that's ur responsibility. if run away from it. u'll pay the price.
of cos if ur born with a sliver or golden spoon. u dont have to wry about how u going to live. just relax n enjoy. but if ur some1 with a humble background like me. it's either u continue with ur mediocre life or u do sth about it. u see. that's the tough decision u have to make.
right now. im feeling somewhat stressed n unsettled. im in need of some guidance but there isnt any ppl who would understand n listen to me. even my parents dont fully understand me. so how am i suppose to talk to anybody?
my father n i. our way of thinking is too different. i guess it's becos of the generation gap. i bet he wont understand what im thinking n saying. trust me. we r totally 2 different person.
let me give an example. from what i heard from my aunts. they always told me that my father used to be a v gd student. every yr he's either 1st or 2nd in class. some1 who's v capable. hardworking. down to earth. so on n so forth. almost like a perfect gentleman. even til now i've nv heard him say a single vulgarity despite his foul temper.
but look at me. im a bad student. always late for classes. my results r not v gd. im lazy. i use vulgarities. im a bad boy. n the list of imperfections goes on. u see the big contrast? i wonder how im going to face my children next time. better keep my history a secret. lol!
my mother didnt have much education. i heard the highest education lvl she got is sec 4. so it's kind of obvious she wouldnt understand me as well. u know sometimes when i ask her a qn n she'll ans me sth that is off topic. like some1 ask u for ur name n u ans back with where u live. even though it's bloody frustrating. but i cant blame her. so in the end i just rephrase my qn.
my younger brothers.. forget about it. both of them have backside brains. (-_-)"
n then my friends. every1 has their own different ideas. so talking to them is pointless. n it just happens that their ideas r different from what i want. so i need some1 who is older n with experience to talk to.
the feeling of loneliness. it's v scary. but on the other hand. it makes u stronger. but that is if u can survive it. seriously i dont know if i can survive or not. im scared. im just a tiny n timid mouse u know. not a gallant horse yet.
im thinking of going back to church. where there r ppl whom i can talk to hopefully. n also where i can have some character n spiritual development. im still considering..
to be continued..

Hi! :D

2010-03-16T11:11:00.000+08:00

once again i havent been blogging for like decades. but this time it's seriously becos im v busy due to fyp n final sem exams. n also becos of im being lazy as well hehe. :X
alright i'll try to recall what happened to me when i was "missing".
1st of all. I'VE GRADUATED FROM POLY!! HAHAHAHA!! even though it's unofficial. but it's going to be official soon.
fyp wasnt that gd. but overall it's considered well done. all the sem exam papers r ok for me. except for 1. as expected the 1 that requires me to memorise - IC BOILER. n worst. that bloody prata lecturer gave us the wrong format n hints. i would say he's the worst lecturer in SMA. he's always late for lessons. took 45mins to mark attendance. talk rubbish. n the list goes on. seriously heck it. that prata should be sacked!
anyway i do hope that i can get As for the rest of the papers. Bs r also fine with me. i guess i should be able to pull up my gpa a little.
however having said that. i dont think i can get into a local uni. which local uni can i go with a gpa of 3? even if i can pull it up a little. i guess the highest i can get is maybe only like 3.2 or 3.1? i dont think i can even hit the 3.3 mark. :(
if i want to go to a uni. i'll most probably be going to SIM. furthermore SIM should have hot babes. so it's not a bad idea after all huh? ;)
i realise that it's important to have pretty girls in a class. (pls note that there's a "s" for the word "girls") becos that can help to motivate me to get up early n be punctual for lessons. becos impression is v important. u know what i mean? lol.
but on the other hand i may not be going to a uni becos i may want to go out to work 1st for experience. or maybe i may want to get a part time degree. hmm got to c how it goes.
after my last paper. i went clubbing at st james power house for the 1st time. as expected. there were lots of hot babes around. loud music n strong liquor. typical clubbing scenes.
me n friends ordered a bottle of 40% vodka. drank it pure. on the rock n also mixed with coke. n my head started to spin after that. i guess i was little drunk. but of cos not to the extent that i vomit n blabber nonsense. im pretty sure that i was like 70% sober at that point of time. hey im not that weak ok! lol. after the drink i walk around the club to explore haha. just being curious. n then it was only until 5am when my friend drove me home after an early breakfast.
ok i got myself a new hp becos the old 1 spoiled. i bought the nokia 5800 for 138 bucks. got tired of sony n so i tried nokia. maybe becos im used to sony. so to me nokia isnt v user friendly. i reformat the phone like 5 times alr. n guess what's the worst. i received a $257 bill for playing around with the phone. heart pain! ouch!
becos there's a software that i accidentally installed n it somehow auto connect to the 3G internet without me knowing it. n also i didnt get myself the 3G data plan. so in the end i got to pay a lot. argh! damn it to the max!! do u know i can do lots of stuffs with 257 bucks! n obviously i went broke after i paid the bill. :(
of cos now everything is ok alr. i got rid of the 3G thingy n i manage to customise my hp with a drop dead gorgeous theme. :D im rather satisfied with the phone. just that the user interface can be further improved.
during feb n the CNY season. as usual i went to msia to visit n have reunion dinner with my relatives. spent my valentines day with my cousin WC. both of us r guys. went to a restaurant n had dinner tgt. i was scantily dressed with an orbiang home shirt n orbit YYSS PE short. n also not forgetting my epic slippers! lol! but who cares. msia only. no big deal. :P
hmm i think that's all i can recall. to be continued..

Shit Happens.

2010-01-05T10:11:00.000+08:00

just becos there's a calculation mistake in my final ans n u gave me a zero? n just becos of a "-" sign u gave me another zero? wow! that's bloody amazing! n u tell me ur v lenient? im speechless.. it's just so effing ridiculous. FCUK YOU MR ANG TIONG GEE!
fcuk myself also. for being so careless. argh! damn it. i guess i should put in more effort too.
im not going to "accept my fate". n i cant afford to admit defeat n give up now. i'll be a bloody fool if i do that. i need fight. fight n fight.
FCUK THE WORLD. FCUK THE 1 UP THERE IN HEAVEN. N FCUK EVERYTHING ELSE.. GRR..
to be continued..

HAPPY NEW YR!

2010-01-02T10:55:00.000+08:00

i went to the CELEBRATE 2010 event at the marina floating platform ytd tgt with HT n friends. didnt have to pay a single cent for it becos i was working there as an usher. cool huh? hehe! ;) n so i get to watch free shows n fireworks live. n the best part is i get paid for doing that. lol!
it's my 1st time working as an usher. n i like it! becos it's easy $$. all i did for ytd was just guarding the entrance of the VIP section n then after that just watch the show. ;D
the fireworks ytd was superb! though im watching it alone haha. n hey. i realise that there's a v BIG difference between watching fireworks live n watching it on tv.
after the fireworks n collecting my pay. i took the mrt n then i got to walk home from sengkang mrt. zzz.. was v hungry n so i went to the kopitiam square near compass pt to have my dinner/supper 1st. becos i need the energy to walk home u know. n let me introduce my 1st meal of 2010 - roast duck rice. n my 1st drink of 2010 - slurpee from 7-11. lol!
alright it's yr 2010 now im going to turn 20 soon. i rmb i did mention about a goal that i want to stop having pocket $$ from my parents b4 i turn 21. so far i suppose im on track for this goal. i have a somewhat stable part time job. though the pay is not v high. n my employers r v nice ppl. i guess i work better with ladies. see.. i told u i have the charm n charisma right. hahahaha! X) ok anyway. i've still got 12 mths to work on this. hmm maybe it's time i carry out the next step of my plan. we'll see how it goes.
i'll stop here for today. to be contined..

Im Back. Phew~

2009-12-31T12:33:00.000+08:00

ok im back from genting. dont ever ask me if i've enjoyed myself or not. becos it's never enjoyable when going out with him. plus im being forced to go there. n also. i go to genting like almost every yr. it's always the same. nth new at all. so sick of it. :(
but this time it's slightly different. i "demanded" (strong word huh?) RM100 from my mum so that i can at least do sth i want in genting.
n so with RM100 in hand. even though it's not a big amount. i went to coffee bean alone for 2 evenings while my parents went to the casino n my younger brothers went to the arcade. ordered a cup of coffee ice blended. n enjoy the ice coffee in the cold weather. love the chilling feeling. it feels gd! n the taste of the coffee ice blend is just heavenly. woohoo..!
alright now. genting stuff aside. u know in my 19 yrs of life. this is the 1st time i see my father trips n fell down right in front of my eyes. wow! interesting huh? the self proclaim "mr almighty" trips n fell down live telecast u know. i guess it should v embarrassing for him. n it was so hilarious that my younger brothers couldnt stop laughing.
but seriously i wasnt laughing at all when that happens. becos i was more worried that sth bad may happen to him. but thank God he's alright. with no any injuries. hmm seems like he's still going tough despite his old age. but anyway. serve him right. this is his retribution for always picking on me. nanny nanny poo poo! >:P
i guess that's all for my xmas trip to msia. to be continued..

1st Gathering

2009-12-20T00:59:00.000+08:00

n so after like 2 donkey years. me n my poly friends had our v 1st overnight gathering in school ytd haha.
we met at 1030pm n slacked at the empty sports hall with the loud music for the whole night. played big2 n blackjack. did a bit of rock climbing. went out to 7-11 at 230am to had our instant noodles for supper. n then after that we got to cross a "river" to go back into the school compound again becos all the gates r locked. interesting huh? i didnt even know there such a "secret" passage in SP.
for me i think the most interesting part of this event is that we get to climb the rock wall for all we want. becos the rock climbing club ppl isnt around (other than my 2 classmates). so there's no restriction for us. hehehe!
this is my 1st time climbing on a professional rock wall. my classmate taught me a few basic bouldering techniques. plan a few routes for me n off i went to climb. of cos it wasnt easy for a beginner like me. it's v taxing for my fingers n arms. even now my fingers r still in pain n somewhat swollen. n my arms just feel so numb. lol. but i like the pain n numb feeling. loving it to the max.
sigh.. i should have join rock climbing 2 yrs ago. i guess this would be 1 of my BIGGEST regret in my poly life. :(
to be continued..

Shangri-la

2009-12-14T00:07:00.000+08:00

hmm i realise that recently i got more time to blog when i reduce my gaming time. lol. n im getting bored of facebook as well. so im back to blogger.
ok anyway. i went to SK wedding dinner ytd at shangri-la. these r some of the observation i've made.
u know when we reach the hotel. it's always courteous to go n shake hands with the groom to congratulate him. so my family members were in the line to take turn to shake his hand. n when it's my turn. yes we did shake hands. but he wasnt looking at me. as in he didnt make any eye contact with me at all when shaking hands. so rude right? :(
but of cos i can understand that he's nervous n stressful about the wedding. this is 1 of his biggest day of his life. he got to make sure that everything goes as planned. n he also got lots of ppl to entertain. so im ok with it. it's no big deal. plus he's my cousin. so all is forgiven. lol. anyway congrats to SK. :D
ok now for the solemnisation. u know the guy who solemnise the wedding. i dont know what is he called. but anyway. i just want to comment that his english pronunciation sux big time.
let me give u an example. like the word "spouse". he pronounce it as "spa". another 1 is. for "groom". he pronounce it as "loom". what the crap right? there r still a lot more as well. too many to list down. omg. i seriously cant stand his bad pronunciation. it's so terrible. i was just wondering how on earth can he become the "solemnisation man" when he cant even pronounce properly? u know what. i think i can do a better job than him. :P
next. this is not an observation i made. but some1 who pissed me off to the max. u know there's 1 bloody effing bastard who keep commenting about me from morning til evening. i dont even know what wrong i've done. seriously i can swear that i did nth that offended him. but all of a sudden. he just keep saying that i sux in front of my relatives n kept elaborating n elaborating on it. what the eff right? walaoeh.. if he isnt my father. i would have eff him upside down inside out left right up n down. he just spoiled my mood for the whole event.
just u wait. i'll make sure u pay for the price for humiliating me. i swear that i'll stuff tonnes of humble pies inside ur effing mouth so that u can shut the eff up. FUCK U!
ok now for the gd stuff. the food at shangri-la is superb. so is the place. v well decorated. v pleasant atmosphere. n then at the hotel restaurant. the only thing that caught my attention was that 1 waitress. omg. she's so pretty! i think she's more pretty than the bride. lol. :X n she even said bye to me when i was leaving. aww.. so sweet right? X) but sadly.. she didnt approach me for my number. too bad for her. she lose out. not me. lol! :P ok im talking crap here. :X
hmm overall it wasnt a v gd experience for me becos of that u know who. eww.. he's just so sickening. that's y i dont like to go out with him. damn it. cant be bothered with him.
i'll stop here today. to be continued..

Revision Week

2009-12-12T15:21:00.000+08:00

sun 6 dec: im going to have my 1st term test paper tmr. but im feeling exceptionally calm n v relax. hmm sth isnt right. i did study u know. im serious. usually i'll feel stressful during test or exam period. but this time it's v different. well in any case. i thank God for giving me the "inner peace" to face my term test next week. i can do it. :)
mon 7 dec: argh!! im sooo effing pissed with myself! damn it! im going to lose a lot of marks! my initial working is suppose to be the right ans. but dont know y. i suddenly feel weird about the qn. n so i changed my working n used a different impedance instead. oh no.. y so itchy hand?!?! now my whole working is wrong. what the crap! :(
hmm let's see. 20 marks to burn for the bloody idiotic mistake on qn 1 plus 1 qn which i dont know how to do n some careless mistake here n there should be enough. i hope my mistakes wont cost more than 20 marks. i want my 'A' for EMACH.
sigh.. that 1st qn.. it's the most simplest qn in that paper but yet i got it all wrg. omg! that's so embarrassing! i going to give myself a tight slap. OUCH!
tue 8 dec: ok i admit that i was kind of complacent ytd n didnt study detailed enough for today's ENGDES paper. but the paper was ok for me. i can do most of the qns. got a few blanks as usual. becos i've forgotten some of the stuff i've remembered. also for a DMR test or exam paper. is either u know or u dont know. sth like logic gates. it's either 1 or 0. there's nth i can do about those blanks which i totally have no idea what to write. anyway i guess i'll be getting a 'B' for this paper. im ok with that.
hmm the next paper is on thursday. so now it's time for me to take a short break. hehe. n then maybe later i'll start a bit of my revision so that i wont need to study too much tmr. we'll see how it goes.
wed 9 dec: omg. i woke up too late today (i think it's 2pm) n now i cant finish with my revision. T.T the time now is 7pm. ICEB paper is at 3pm tmr. we r tested on 4 topics n so far i've manage to complete only 1 topic. n also. that bloody lecturer didnt gave us any hints at all. which means that i got to study everything. sigh.. i still got 3 huge topics to go. gd luck to me. did i mention that there r grammar mistakes in my lecture notes? lol!
thu 10 dec: miraculously. i managed to finish my revision today 2 hrs b4 the test. lucky huh? hehehe. anyway. the test paper was easy for me. all the qns r kind of straight forward. not much problems. should be able to get a gd grade for this module. :)
unfortunately. my luck ran out after 5pm when i went for the SCHT revision class. 5 topics to be covered. n worse the test is at 10am tmr morning. sigh.. i dont think i can slp tonight. even if i slp i wont be able to slp in peace. :(
fri 11 dec: true enough. i didnt complete my revision ytd. i only manage to complete 3 topics b4 i went to bed. n obviously i didnt do v well for today's test. but overall i guess i can at least get a 60 marks. sigh.. i hate memorising work. :( alright forget it. term test is finally over. so it's time to relax now! :)
to be continued..

Im Waiting..

2009-12-02T15:49:00.000+08:00

so what if ur the head of the hse? big deal?
u can be a supervisor at work. shouting orders at ppl. supervising the ppl so that everything goes right. but u know what. ur NOT a supervisor at home.
u want me to wash the plates when u didnt even bother to put ur plates in the basin after u've finish ur food? u want me to tidy my bed when ur blanket is not even folded when u got up from ur bed? n u want me to clean the hse when u just sit there on the sofa n "supervise"?
n then u want to talk about leadership with me? u must be joking! in case u dont know. u lead by example. not with ur bloody mouth.
19 yrs. that's how long i've been tolerating. a few more yrs n i'll be independent. earning my own income n supporting myself.
n pls. get ur facts right. who wants ur stinking n pathetic pocket $$? u think i want it so badly? if given a choice. seriously i wouldnt want ur $$. it's not a matter of want anyway. it's a matter of need. becos i need the $$ to buy food to survive. like duh.
but hey if u dont want to give me my allowance. then u shouldnt give birth to me in the 1st place right? i rather not to be born n have all these troubles.
just u wait. that day will come. a few more yrs to go..
to be continued..

Relax Only..

2009-11-23T12:03:00.000+08:00

forget it. the more i think about it. the more vexing it gets. i just do whatever i can n i'll see how it goes. no point worrying too much. 船到桥头自然直. that should be the solution. smart right? hehehe! X)
hmm recently i realise that my ex-classmates from other polys n courses seems to be v busy with projects n school work. why is it so huh? i find it v weird becos i still have free time even though im in the 3rd yr of my course. lol.
ok now let's see. my fyp is almost done. only left with a report to do. testing of the hull model. n getting some materials n stuffs. should be able to complete it on time. i hope so. :X
initially we wanted the do the model ourselves. but later on we realise that all of us do not have the required skills to produce the complicated model. even if we were to do it ourselves i can guarantee that the model will be v f-ugly. n it'll take us ages to complete it.
so in the end. we decided to hire professional to help us with the model. i know it's kind of like cheating but seriously the model is not easy. if we can do it ourselves we would have do it. hey im a man with integrity ok! ;) including my group members as well lah.
here r some pictures of the model. all the credit goes to SZ for coming out with the dimensions n the cartoon images.

this is the outer part of the hull. ^

this is the inner part of the hull. ^

when u put them tgt. it's sth like this. ^

we collected the transparent acrylic hull model last week. n omg! it's sooo damn beautiful. but of cos everything comes with a price. n the model set us back by 320 bucks. oh no! there's a hole in my piggy bank! sigh.. it hurts to see my 60 bucks broke away from my piggy bank just like that.. :'(
ok next is report writing. every week there will be a report for the class to do becos of the practical lesson. n guess what. the whole class just copy from each other's report. lol. cool huh? so overall there's nth much to do i guess. even the assignments r copied from 1 another. but for me it's different. i do the assignments myself ok! ;D
sigh.. term test is coming in a few weeks time n it's time to whack the lecture notes. this is the last sem n i got to buck up. so anyway that's all. to be continued..

Staying Positive

2009-11-02T15:56:00.000+08:00

i've got lots of stuff to say today. but i'll keep it short n sweet n straight to the point.
im feeling v sick about my life. i feel that i sux. be it personality or appearance or anything that has got to do with me.
i want to improve my living conditions n myself. but i lack $$. n sometimes even though the mind is willing. but the body is weak. sigh..
y am i like that huh??
i thank God for every single thing i have currently. but at the same time. i want to improve. i dont want to be a complacent n remain stagnant. but again. the mind is willing. but the body is weak.
i hope what im doing now is on track. im working part time to earn a bit of income for myself. im putting effort into my studies. i exercise 3-4 days per week to tone up my body. n i read books as well. even though i just need a little bit more discipline on these. so what else am i lacking? or perhaps i just need to be more patient?
speaking of studies. i feel that i havent get over my last sem disappointing results. i know myself. i seldom have this kind of "syndrome". but hey. this just shows that i did put in effort for my studies right?
anyway. overall we'll see how it goes. i pray (instead of hoping) that i've got the right plan in mind. becos if the plan is wrong. then all my effort will go down into the drain n i dont want that to happen.
i also pray that i can get the right results. n God pls bless me with more strength n courage to carry out the plan. if i ask n i'll receive right? since i've asked so pls give it to me k? haha. :P
ok to be continued..

企鹅's Bday

2009-10-23T13:54:00.000+08:00

n after that the cake was smashed onto her face. >:)

went to 企鹅's "surprise" bday celebration a few nights ago. it was an impromptu invitation from GQ. the usual ppl were gathered n each of us made a card for her.
it was a surprising event for the rest of us as well. becos guess what we've found out. she's attached! omg. i mean the gal whom i used to like is attached! :D this is a v BIG surprise for me u know.
honestly i do feel glad for her. heard from GQ that the bf of hers is a nice guy. i mean he'd better be. becos if not i'll be chasing him with a chopper. lol! no wry. there isnt any internal meaning here. so dont read too much into it. :P
another surprise for me is that 企鹅 has changed! in terms of appearance. she just looked gorgeous that night even though she's in her home clothes without make up. n it's kind of disturbing. or maybe should i say it's captivating? lol.
but hey. i also realise that i look esp gorgeous that night too u know. for this i can assure u that it's 101% n genuinely captivating. even i myself cant believe how gd i look. lol! X) if any1 is doubting what im saying. he/she can go take a look at the photo GQ has taken. ;P
alright. enough of my nonsense. anyway the credit goes to GQ for her photography skills that manage to make an average guy like me look gd in that photograph. n also for planning the surprise celebration. i guess that's all for it. last but not least. happy bday to 企鹅! :)
a new sem has started this week. as usual im having difficulty waking up in the morning again. i guess i'll need to slp in a slping bag. like what i've said b4. my bed is too big n comfy. i need to slp on sth not so comfortable so that i can wake up haha.
ok that's it for now. to be continued..

Revived!

2009-09-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

once again. my blog is rotting haha. n this time the culprit none other than facebook. becos facebook has taken most of my attention away from blogger, hotmail n even msn. let's forget about friendster. it's officially dead. lol. of cos im partly responsible as well. i dont know. i realise that im getting more n more lazy. omg. what's happening to me??
anyway enough of my crap. let's get back on track. hmm i got my yr 3 sem 1 exam results a few weeks ago. sigh.. that was exactly my 1st reaction when i saw the results. it was holy crap. what can i say? i dont know.
i could have blame it on luck. or the lecturer. or sth else. but somehow i feel that that is not the right way to response. even though the lecturers n luck do play a part for my results. but again overall i guess it's still up to me n my attitude that determines the results.
what i can see now is that there is only 1 last n final chance for me to buck up n pull up my gpa. it's either i cherish it or lose it. 1 gd news is that my course is back on track. lucky that i dont have to retain for another sem. just that i got to inform the school system about this becos it's outdated n i dont want to pay for extra school fees.
more gd news: i've found myself a job as a telemarketer for $6/hr. the short n flexible hrs suits me v well. the pay is reasonable. n my supervisors r v nice ppl.
but the con is that i've got to fix at least 1 appointment during every call session. n it's kind of difficult esp when it has got to do with insurance. i feel v insecure doing this job. becos i can be dismissed anytime u know. if i cant make any appointments. :(
i started working 2 weeks ago n it was kind of smooth. i manage to fix a few appointments. but this week is v bad for me becos i did not fix any appointments at all. i wonder how my supervisors r going to react to this. i dont know if they r going to dismiss me sooner or later. sigh.. got to see how it goes.
after years n years of procrastination since when i was sec 4. i've finally made the decision to go suntanning on last friday. well it's my 1st time doing suntanning n i feel that it wasnt v successful. becos firstly i was sunburned even though i've applied the suntanning oil. secondly some part of the skin wasnt tanned. esp the side. n lastly i forgot to bring a water bottle along. i guess i could have gotten a heat stroke or severe dehydration if i continued to stay there n tan. :(
but on the overall i guess i did get a little bit darker. i look slightly more MACHO now. hehehe! n im recovering from the burn. the burnt skin r coming off. n of cos i'll be going to tan again once my skin has recovered. to get an even tan. ;)
ok i'll stop here. hmm i've told myself that im going to post at least 2 entries per mth. so well.. err i'll try haha. anyway no worry. to be continued..

Im Injured.. Ouch!

2009-09-15T02:07:00.000+08:00

i went out at 11pm ytd intending to jog along the track beside the road. i wanted to do a bit of warm up b4 the jog. n the tables n stools at the void deck caught my attention. i decided to leap over the table to kind of like warm up my leg n body. n so i ran towards the table. stepped on the stool n "took off".
i successfully leaped over the table. while i was in the air i suddenly saw a wall in front of me. at that moment i was thinking to myself: "where did the wall appear from?". becos i didnt see that wall b4 the jump. n then i realise that im heading for the wall.
i collided onto the wall head on just as i was about to land. n damn it. the impact was pretty painful even though i tried to covered my head with my arms. my specs went flying. my left forehead took the impact. my left upper lips is swollen now due to a cut. n there r also bruises on my elbows n knees.
after i recovered from the concussion. 1st thing i found out. my mouth was v bloody haha. n i took some time to find my specs. i went back home to take a bath n wash my wounds. then i took a cloth to stop the bleeding from my lips.
i wasnt able to go to slp after that as i was having a headache for the whole night. n then the thought of not being able to wake up the next morning came across my mind. lol. so i say a little prayer n eventually went to slp.
thank God that i did wake up today haha. though i still have the headache. i guess it'll take some time for my wounds to heal.
to be continued..

What The Crap?

2009-09-08T18:09:00.000+08:00

hmm again. it's been a looong looong time since i last blog. lol. didnt have the mood to blog becos of exams n stuffs. but anyway. suddenly have the feel to blog now. so here i am haha.
well i was busy preparing for sem exams for the past 3 weeks. i work v hard n i feel that my hard work wasnt reciprocated for some of the papers. esp SPOW. cant believe that the lecturer gave us the wrong hints!
the MCQ section was a breeze. the calculation qns were ok for me. but the long ans qns was a nightmare! i was totally stunned when i read thru the qns. becos i could only ans like 2 out of 6 qns! what the crap on earth is this? zzz..
so i spent the "extra" time staring into blank space. waiting in vain for an inspiration to struck me like a thunderbolt on how to ans those bloody qns. i also went ahead to calculate how many marks i could possibly get n found out i still can get around 50 plus marks. that was so damn lucky. n then stare into blank space again. after that i spent the "remaining" time answering crap for those 4 fat qns that i didnt know how to do. n that's it. :(
i worked so hard. memorise the tonnes of notes. went thru it for multiple times to make sure that i've really memorise the impt points. but in the end.. sigh..
as for AUXM. forget about it. i just hope i can get a pass. there r so many notes n drawings to memorise. i couldnt possibly rmb all of them. n y is it that the exam qns r always not related to whatever i've studied even though i follow the hints. FUCK!
MEK2 was ok for me. i can do most of the qns. i guess i'll be getting a B or C for it. dont expect me to get an A for these of kind of paper. i sux at memorising.
n then for math. the paper was tough. but im tougher. hehe. i was able to do the paper. but i'll most probably get a B. though there's still hope for me to get an A. provided my guesses r correct. n hopefully there isnt much careless mistakes. hey i concentrate my brain with 2 bottles of chicken essence b4 the paper ok! hopefully it works. lol. :P
n now for INTCN paper. it was total ownage. was able to do all the qns except for 1. v high chance of getting an A. :D
SHIPBIZ was kind of smooth for me. was able to do all the long ans n calculation qns. but wasnt sure of my ans for the MCQs that consist of 60%. lol. we'll see how it goes.
alright so after exams it's time to go back to work. but guess what. i was fired becos i took a 3 weeks leave. mr manager told me the company head feels that i lacked commitment n so i cant work there anymore. dots.. again what the crap on earth was that?
anyway. forget about it. getting fired is no big deal. lol. n dont expect me to beg for the job. becos there r lot more jobs out there. so now i got to hunt for a new 1. i got to a find a new job fast becos i hate the feeling of being broke. job hunting is so troublesome..
i'll stop here for now. to be continued..

$$ = :)

2009-07-29T18:33:00.000+08:00

alright. i finally found myself a job. went for the interview last week. n guess what. it's another door to door sales n marketing company - granton singapore ptd ltd.
initially i was turned off when i realise that it's a door to door job. but becos im alrdy v broke. so i got no choice but to keep an open mind n see what the job can offer me.
well the pay is gd. i'll get 10-15 bucks for every sales i close. n the items involved r discount cards for some of the established restaurants n beauty centers. restaurants like fig & olive n organic cafe n etc. beauty centers like adonis n mary chia n etc. n the card allows the user to have 1 for 1 offer or discount for the main course n free/discount facial services. sth like that.
obviously this company is way much better than NC. when i was in NC. i only get 3-5 bucks per sale. normally i'll hit 5 sales n earn around 20 bucks. so if i want to earn 30 bucks for the day. i got to hit 10 sales.
from my experience i can say that 10 sales is v unlikely in 2-3 hrs. unless there's a v gd reason for the customer to buy the item. can any1 come out with a gd reason y the customer should buy a ridiculous box of pencils or photo frames? lol.
however in granton. i just have to hit 3 sales to earn that 30 bucks. n if i hit 5 sales onwards. it'll be 15 bucks per sale. cool right? i mean it's easy. trust me. a trained monkey can do 2-3 sales per day. :) furthermore at the end of the mth. if my total pay is less than 600 bucks. they'll top it up for me. lol. i wonder if it's true or not.
anyway. the items n $$ in granton seems appealing to me. so i thought to myself y not i give it a try. since i've got door to door sales experience b4. so it shouldnt be much of a problem to me to hit a few sales. 3 sales a day should be ok for me.
so far i've worked for 1 week. i was kind of rusty for the 1st few days. but after a few practices it's was ok for me alrdy.
for my 1st few days. i was trained by this guy n he's v gd. he has got the motivation n the ppl skills. it's the 1st time i've seen such a gd sales person b4. it's his ppl skills that impressed me. lol. n later on i came to knew that he's so gd becos he's got 30 over yrs of sales exp. no wonder haha.
after the few days of training. i was left alone. although sometimes he'll help me out with 1 sales. anyway i got myself a few sales. earned a bit of $$. n i'll be taking my pay on monday. hehe.
i dont know how long i'll stay in the company. even though the pay n item is gd. i dont like the working days. got to work 5 days per week. i'll try to negotiate to 4 days. hopefully they'll allow.
sem exams r coming in 3 weeks time. got to study alrdy. hopefully they can cut the working days to 4. so that i've time to prepare for my exams b4 the revision week. lucky they allow me to take leave during my exam period. or else i'll be quiting v soon. lol.
hmm so far my plan seems to be on track. once the pay is coming in i'll carry on with my next step. maybe i'll find a myself a v pretty girlfriend. lol! just joking lah. :P anyway i doubt i'll have time for a relationship now. becos there r so many things i want to do. but well we'll see. but 1st i got to get my 1st step right. so just relax n be cool. hehe.
ok i'll stop here. to be continued.. :D

T.T

2009-07-18T13:38:00.000+08:00

this week has been a demoralising week for me. becos of my term test results. as expected not a single A's. :(
i dont know if im expecting too much or what. but i study to get an A. or at least a B. i did get a few B's though. for my INTCN n MATH.
im satisfied with these results. just that it frustrates me when i know i could have got an A instead. careless mistakes pull my marks down for my math paper. i got the whole qn wrong just becos i forgot to put a bloody power. the qn is so simple yet i got it wrong. damn it.
as for INTCN. just becos i forgot to study 1 part of the tutorial n it prevented me from getting A. of all the qns in the tutorial. y must the lecturer set that particular qn i missed out? omg. how unlucky can i be. zzz.. y am i always so unlucky..?
for SPOW paper. i knew i was too slow n i spent too much time correcting the careless mistakes. so i only got a 50/100 marks. that paper was so easy that i can safely say about 90% of the class got either A or B. yet im 1 of the the few that got a shit result. omg. that's so discouraging.. :(
i was shock to get my AUXM n MEK2 results. didnt expect myself to get 50+ for both of them. was expecting 60+ for both actually. i got so disappointed that i didnt even bother to look thru the paper to see what went wrg.
another matter is that my 1st n favourite adidas shoe is spoilt n the sole came out! initially i thought i could repair it myself or if not i can always look for a cobler to help me out. becos i just need to get a glue to stick back the sole to the shoe. but what im afraid was that the glue may "disfigure" my shoe if it's not done properly.
anyway. i dont know y. but my father just took the initiative to repair the shoe himself. n now it's being disfigured by the slimmy yellowish glue! argh!
i mean i appreciate his help but u know.. sigh.. all i can say now is bye bye to my adidas shoe that has been with me for 5 yrs. :(
i'll stop here. to be continued.. :( :( :( :(

Random

2009-07-09T13:09:00.000+08:00

yawns.. life without laptop is soooo boring. i miss my laptop badly. :( no laptop = no dota. no l4d. no fifa. no games. no music. no entertainment. omg. zzz..
been looking for a job. but couldnt find a suitable 1. i've been repeating this for so many bloody times. it's so damn annoying. n when i found a suitable job. i went for the interview but wasnt shortlisted. what's wrong huh?
got to come up with a ppt presentation next month for our FYP project. n our team haven even started to do anything yet. sigh.. it's giving me lots of stress. got to do sth about the project fast.
mid sem test also v troublesome. i heard that there r a lot of failures. n i hope that im not 1 of them. u know no matter how bad it is for me. i should at least get a border line pass. it's not like i cant do the paper. in fact i was able to ans most of the qns. just that im not v sure for the ans for like 2-3 qns. i believe i can get a gd grade.
but well. if i really fail. then i guess i got to nothing to say. sigh.. whatever lah.
i'll stop here. to be continued..

Yr 3 Mid Sem Test :(

2009-07-04T14:58:00.000+08:00

roar!! mid sem test is finally over haha. been mentally stress out for the past few days. :( n so. now it's the time to wreck havoc n relax. hehe!
well. im kind of disappointed that i didnt do v well for the term tests. becos i didnt get any A's. :( i guess i'll most probably be getting B's for all the modules instead. even though the results r not released yet. but i can somehow estimate how much im going to get.
u know it's kind of frustrating that u study for the modules but in the end u didnt score well.
i made a lot careless mistakes for the SPOW paper. n i spent so much time correcting the mistake that i dont have enough time to finish the paper. i mean i was able to do all the questions. i just need more time. but sadly.. sigh..
MATH paper was kind of smooth for me. just that i didnt know how to integrate 2 qns. n guess what. the 2 qns cost me 15 marks! just 2 qns u know. omg. how on earth am i going to get an A for a 50 marks paper like this. zzz..
INTCN was ok for me. just that i forgot to study 1 part of some topic n i missed out a few v crucial marks. n i really mean v crucial. damn it. hate myself for being so forgetful.
n then for MEK2 n AUXM. even though i hate to memorise. i make it a point to put in the effort to study. n i seriously dont understand y do the lecturers love to set a few ridiculous qns which obviously i couldnt answer haha. but overall i should be getting B's for these modules.
n btw. did i mention that i didnt have the lecture notes to study for AUXM. becos i forgot to print it. lol! but fortunately the teaching ppt slides can be found on the blackboard online. though the slides r not as detailed as the lecture notes. but at least i have smth to study. if not i dont know how im going to survive the test. lol!
lesson learnt: i cant afford to be so forgetful n careless again. once beaten twice shy. there's always a price to pay for a mistake.
studies aside. my laptop has been sent to acer hq for repair for the past 1 week n it will only be rdy for collection after around 3 weeks. n i've been feeling v uncomfortable becos all my gaming activities has come to a halt. it feels like decade since i last game. :(
but on the other hand. i feel that this is a gd chance for me to acquire new habit rather than gaming. furthermore i also realise that the ppl around me dont game much either. i mean it's ok to game for like 2-3 hrs once a while. but not everyday. so yep. i'll see what i can do about it. im 19 yrs old alrdy. time to grow up.
alright i'll stop here for now. to be continued..

27 June

2009-06-29T14:45:00.000+08:00

alright im officially 19 yrs young from this date onwards til 27 june 2010 haha. :) a million thks to all the people who wish me a happy bday. it's kind of touching to know that there r people who rmb my birth date. n i feel v blessed. :)
i went out with WJ, CT n Liz on that day to celebrate my bday. it's just a v simple celebration. we had pizza for dinner, chit chat for a few hrs to catch up with 1 another n went home after that. to WJ, CT n Liz: thk u v much for the pizza hut treat. really appreciate it. :D
n then i also met up with DS too. becos his bday is on the 29th while mine is on the 27th. so we decided to celebrate our bday on the 28th which is today haha. we had bubble tea at compass pt n had our men's talk. lol! n yep that's abt it.
well the number of smses n calls have drop drastically over the past few weeks. n that's v gd. becos it shows that she has move on fr the broken relationship. n i feel glad n relieve about it. i think the only thing i can do now is to wish her all the best in life. im sure she'll find her happiness sooner or later. :)
sigh.. im going to have my term test starting fr tmr til friday. n it's been v stressfull for me becos there'll be a test every single day for the whole of next week. :'( but i guess i should be able to handle it. just have to perservere thru next week n i'll be free fr tests again haha. n i believe i can do well. so no wry. everything's gonna be fine.
i guess i'll stop here for now. got to rush thru my lecture notes n tutorials. so alright. to be continued.. bye!
[sometimes somethings r just so close.. but yet so far away. n it's nv easy to deny it. but sometimes perhaps it's better to give it up.]

School Daze

2009-06-04T18:34:00.000+08:00

got back my SPOW test result a few days ago. n i got full marks for it. im v proud of the result. becos i put in the effort to study for it n i did well. :) but hey u know. let us ignore the fact that it's a open book test. lol! X)
lessons n exams aside. i was introduced to a new sport by a classmate a few days ago as well. it's called pakour. im not v sure if is it a sport or not. but anyway. it's damn awesome. but at the same time it's also v dangerous. here r some videos - http://parkour-videos.com.
n here comes the exciting part. my friends n i actually did a bit of parkour in school. n u know. it's sooo damn cool when we climbed n walked across the roof of a bridge n the students who passed by n looked at us n gave us the stunned face. seriously the feeling it's better than walking on a red carpet. lol!
well it's true that the stunt is risky. n we even got a few minor injuries due to our inexperience i guess haha. my arms got scratched by the edge of the wall when we were climbing down from the bridge while my friend got a few minor bruises on his legs. n i almost sprained my ankle too. :X but despite that. i feel that the risk is worth it. trust me. the feeling is worth experiencing. hahahaha! :D
ok i'll stop here for now. to be continued.. oh btw. parkour rocks!! X)

Homework for Yr 3

2009-05-26T14:29:00.000+08:00

omg. yr 3 work is giving me a BIG headache. esp FYP. sigh.. honestly speaking i totally have no idea how the project is going to be done. as in what should i do or how am i going to complete it. zzz..
u see. my group has agreed to build a model of the hull of the ship for teaching aid. even though i was against idea. but anyway i can only comply as majority was for the idea.
we had our discussion on the materials we r going to use, the dimensions n design of the model n etc.. n the 1st n BIGGEST challenge we face is that all of us did not have sec 3/4 D&T background except for 1 person.
to me it's not impossible to come up with the model even though we do not have that D&T background. we just have to do more work n research. but the discouraging part is that none of us r doing the work. :(
hmm maybe i should start doing the research n set the example for others to follow. after all im the assistant leader of the group. well i didnt volunteer to be 1. we drew lots n somehow the position just landed on my head. i dont know whether i should be glad or sad about it. anyway i'll just do what i can do n we'll c what happens.
FYP aside. the modules r giving me a headache as well. the lecturers r teaching too fast n i've got tonnes to catch up. it's so stressful.
i guess that's all for now. to be continued..

Getting Serious

2009-05-19T13:08:00.000+08:00

today i realise that i need to be serious if i want to improve or be gd at sth. be it sports, academic or anything.
i've somehow came to this conclusion that i'll nv achieve it if i continue to be slack. there's a time to play n there's a time to be serious.
[but the sad part is that being serious can harm the relationship between people. i dont know y most ppl have this wrong eqn that being serious = being hostile. is it the nature of human?]
i also realise that the process can be painfully slow or v awkward in the beginning. but as long as im ready to persevere thru all the awkward situations or processes n continue to practice. i'll be able to master it. the question is am i ready to do the work..?
well obviously it's easier said than done. i know that even though im 19. im still v immature n i have not learned to take actions. sigh.. i need to change my thinking.
1 gd news is that i've cut down the number of days n hrs spent on gaming. on the days when i game. the max hrs i game is 2 hrs. n im glad. hehe. :D but for week ends is a different story alrdy. lol. :X i'll change no wry.
hmm i think that's all for now. to be continued..

Yr 3 Sem 1

2009-05-08T12:19:00.000+08:00

well this week is the 3rd week of the sch sem. so far everything's going fine. just that there r a few new modules to learn for yr 3. like duh. lol.
SPOW is kind of tough as all those physics n new formulas r driving me nuts. zzz..
EMATH2 is still ok for me. just need some practices to recall my integration n differentiation n of cos algebra.
i like INTCN lessons a lot. esp the lecturer. becos i feel that he's v professional n i like the way he teaches the class. damn gd. he's able to explain a concept in a interesting manner n he makes it easy for me to understand n gosh. he's got my respect.
as for AUXM. it's the total opposite of INTCN haha. i guess it's becos the lecturer is new n doesnt has much exp in teaching. so i shall close an eye n not to be quick to judge. :X
hmm nothing much happen these few weeks. just going to sch n back home. so far i've overslept a few times n i've missed a few lessons. n it's v sickening for me. becos even though i slept early. i wasnt able to wake up on time in the morning for the next day. zzz..
u know sometimes i wonder if is there an insomnia medicine available so that i can take it n i wont sleep like a pig anymore. sigh.. ok im talking crap haha. anyway i think i got to sleep at a even earlier time. maybe at 9pm. well i shall try.
hmm i've been broke for the past few mths. n i seriously need a job. but i couldnt find a gd one. damn it. thought of going back the next concept. but the thought of door to door sales just turns me off. sigh.. this is so frustrating. i guess i can only be patient n continue to keep a lookout.
well i suddenly got this emptiness n this sour/bitter feeling im my heart right now. becos i've lost something that is close to my heart. initially this feeling isnt there. i dont know why. maybe this sour/bitter feeling takes some time for it to take effect i guess. but anyway since it has happen then so be it. i got to move on.
ok i'll stop here for now. to be continued.. :)

Moving On

2009-04-21T16:20:00.001+08:00

attachment ended a few days ago. it feels good when i dont have to go to the office anymore. hehe! i've also received my pay from MSI. although it's only a pathetic $440/month. but still it's better than nothing. n there's around $220 more yet to be paid to me. i guess i'll get it by the end of this month.
as expected there's a slight deduction in my pay. becos i was late once n i took a few days of leave. well it's fine for me becos the $$ doesnt mean a lot to me anyway haha. :X
i guess i've got my academic stuff settled. i was able to fit all my modules in my timetable n hence i dont have to retain for another sem. lucky me. but the timetable for this sem is kind of pack as i got 1 extra module. sigh.. damn it.
alright now i think i got to get a part time job fast. becos i need $$ obviously. i've contacted research plus n i hope that they'll contact me for the next project. n im also looking out for another part time job. hopefully i can find a gd one.
hmm as i grow older i realise that time really flies. weeks fly pass within a blink of an eye. n the weeks become months n the months become years. n im so guilty of wasting time.
i feel that i need to learn to give up on pc games becos it's costing me a lot of time. but u know it's easier said than done. n im struggling with it. hmm seems like i got to put in more effort n do sth about it fast. becos i want to be free fr the guilt of wasting time. i guess one has to give up sth in order to move up.
well it's always nv easy to give up on sth that has become part of ur life. be it a habit or a relationship. i cant help it if the other party wanted to give it up. reasons like becos "i can find some1 better" or "we quarrelled too much" is ridiculous. i say it's ridiculous is becos one will always find some1 better than the current boy/gal friend n quarrels r just part n parcel of a relationship. that's just my point of view.
anyway it's ok. i can start all over again. perhaps it's better that way. alright got to move on. to be continued..

-.-"

2009-04-09T14:38:00.000+08:00

sigh.. luck doesnt seems to be on my side recently. been feeling down. zzz.. damn. what's happening to me?
hmm i guess it all began when i failed my MEK2. even though obviously failing MEK2 isnt becos of luck but more of my attitude issue. anyway it was kind of surprising for me to find out recently that repeating n forwarding modules can be so troublesome. all i can say is that it's a long n v tedious process.
next is that i got a bad haircut from J&Jas salon. ok although this happens occasionally. but of all time. y now when i cant wear a cap becos i gtg to office? omg. this is so frustrating. so now i can only wait for my hair to grow longer then i'll get it trim again. sigh.. i hate my hair.
well actually the haircut wasnt v horrible nor it's nice. i just find the haircut has no standard at all. as in like there isnt any "style" factor. i dont know how to put it across but in conclusion. i'll nv allow that auntie to cut my hair again. she's on my banlist.
n next. just only ytd. i lost the MSI entrance card. i seriously dont know how i lost it. it just somehow disappeared in my pocket. well what can i say now? damn it. lesson learned: i'll nv put cards in my pocket again. i'll put it inside my wallet instead.
but no worries. everything will be fine soon. i'll solve the all the problems. to be continued..

$$

2009-04-06T13:08:00.000+08:00

hmm went to tampines mall to celebrate Mr Gek's bday with a group of ex sec school classmates a few days ago. we ate at some asian restaurant n it cost me around 15 bucks in total for the cake n dinner. expensive right? n thus im broke again. lol. but i think it's ok though. since it's Mr Gek's bday then nvm.

a few days b4 Mr Gek's bday. i met up with a few of my ex pri school classmates to celebrate WeiJuan's bday. though we ate at MOF but it wasnt as expensive for me. becos i only ordered a desert as i've alrdy eaten my meals b4 that. after the dinner we walked to clarke quay n settled down at some club to chit chat over some alcoholic drinks. n that's the expensive part. lol. i ordered a glass of lemon vodka n share the cost of the potato wedges n a glass of whisky. n so overall i spent close to 25 bucks over there. n also it's the 1st time i've been to a club. the club wasnt as crowded or happening as i thought it would be. i guess it's becos it's a sunday night n every1 gtg to bed early since they got to work the following day haha.

this week is the 5th week of the attachment. 2 more weeks to go n i'll be released. hehe. cant wait for it to end. ;)

ok i think that's all for now. to be continued..

:) :(

2009-03-25T05:46:00.000+08:00

it has been decades since i last blog. well the reason is becos im too lazy to blog haha. :X but anyway since i've the time now i might as well blog a bit.
well maybe i should start today's post fr where i've stopped. which is b4 CNY. i'll try to recall what i can rmb during CNY.
alright as usual i went to msia to celebrate CNY. but this time the exp was rather interesting. i played Wii for the 1st time at my cousin's place. n it was awesome. we had a game of tennis n of cos initially i was v noob as i wasn't familiar with the controller. but after a few practices i was able to grasp the "feel" n for the 1st time i won a tennis match against my cousin after he had thrashed me for like 6 games. lol. XD
as for the "kumpong bungalow". guess what? it was renovated! n the place is much more beautiful now than b4. although sometimes there would be a foul smell coming fr somewhere n there r still lots of bugs. zzz.. but overall the living condition over there has improve a lot. :)
shortly after CNY i had my sem exams. and after the exams i've got attachment. btw i chose MSI ship management company as my 1st choice becos i was attracted to the words "ship management" haha. sounds cool huh? i tot i was going to learn to inspect ships. then maybe a bit of office work n hands on like welding n stuffs. but so far all i did was admin work, simple auditing n accounting. zzz.. i suppose that's the basic of management haha.
this week is my 4th week of attachment. 3 more weeks to go. cant wait for it to be over. my holidays r gone becos of the attachment. sigh.. :( working life is sooo boring. i dont like it. there's got to be
an easier way man.
i got my sem results a week ago. wasnt v well done. in fact it was holy shit. i failed 2 modules - MEK2 n GEMS. n i got to retake them. :( obviously my sem gpa sux as well. i think i deserve it. for being so slack n lazy. but fortunately my overall gpa is still above 3. only slightly above 3. hmm i think i need to get serious for my next n following semesters. i want to pull up my gpa.
i was utterly disappointed with my ETRON n EMEC grades. cant believe i got a D+ n C+. i was expecting As or at least Bs for both. i seriously dont know how it turn out to be like this. damn it man. :( however what surprise me the most abt the results is that i got all As for the rest of the modules. ok that's like so .. im lost for words. dont know how to describe the feeling. :X
i've got to admit that i was lazy n thus the shit results. it was seriously v disappointing for me. i almost cried haha. :X sigh.. but so what? i guess there's no point regretting it now. got to move on.
hmm right now im at MSI office doing some accounting work again. omg. it's damn boring. n so in order to minimise the boredom. i'll go to the pantry v often to drink n eat a bit. lol. it should be alright i guess. i did finished my work n it isnt wrong to have a bit of rest. like 1 of my lecturer always said. rest is part of the school curriculum. so it's recommended to take short breaks. lol.
anyway so far im getting Bs for the weekly assignments. actually im fine with Bs. though i wanted to get As. i mean who doesnt want to have As right? plus i got to pull up my gpa too. n so i'll just do what i can to get at least an A for 2 of the assignments.
ok i'll stop here for now. to be continued.. :)

Hmm..

2009-01-24T14:49:00.000+08:00

sigh.. y did it turn out like this? i've got no idea. i didnt want it to be like this u know. hmm the relationship between ppl is indeed complicated huh?
is it really my fault? ok obviously it's partly my fault. but not totally though. since it takes 2 hands to clap. n of cos im sry for my bad. forgive me pls.
is it wrg to express myself? hey im not the kind of oh-so-obedient goody boy u know. i've got an attitude n i express it ONLY when im utterly upset or unhappy.
sometimes when i give in doesnt mean i allow ppl to step over my head. so dont anyhow throw tantrums at me. i'll get pissed off n retaliate. n when that happens dont accuse me of being bla bla bla.
pls dont compare me with other ppl. im not perfect. like duh! if the other party is so gd then by all means leave me n get lost. i only need a few ppl to believe in me.
is this the only soln? or is there a better one? i dont know.. the choice is not made by me alone. again it takes 2 hands to clap. im positive though.
or perhaps i just need a break. im tired n stressed out. esp when one's effort is not reciprocated.
to be continued..

CNY

2009-01-23T13:32:00.000+08:00

well CNY is here again. which also means that i gtg msia soon. sigh.. CNY at msia = BORING!
im kind of reluctant to go over there. but no choice. it's a family tradition. n i got to respect it since im born as a chinese. so i guess i'll have to go with a open heart.
this time i'll be at msia for around 5 days instead of 7 becos i got sch. thank God n lucky me hehe. n u know what. i can alrdy predict what im going to do over there.
for the 1st 3 days i'll be spending the night at a cousin's bungalow. cool huh? yes it's luxurious but so what? all i did in that bungalow was lying on a bed or sofa n rot! im serious man. becos there's nth for me to do other than taking photos for my father n collecting ang baos with the pathetic msia rupiah currency. zzz.. but hopefully my cousin can bring me out to a movie or let me use his pc hehe! then i wont be so bored. lol.
the 4th day is the worst. my family would go to another "bungalow" n what's so special about this bungalow is that it's located in some kampung! sigh.. staying in that place it's like playing survival. got to outlast those irritating bugs for a day. lucky it's only a day. if not i'll turn into a jungle boy like tarzan. zzz..
as for the 5th day. i'll be on the way back to spore alrdy. not sure if i'll be taking a bus or car home. yet to be confirmed. n after that it's home sweet home! :D
ok i'll stop here now. to be continued.. happy CNY in advance! :)

No Worries :)

2009-01-17T03:57:00.000+08:00

hmm was kind of slack this few weeks. that's y no post haha. but there's nothing to post about also. becos nothing much happen recently. just me going to school. being late as usual. though not everytime but most of the time. lol! :X
as for my term test results. omg. it sux man. i flunk MEK2 n SSTAB due to some misunderstanding. got only 30 plus marks for both of the modules. :( while the rest got 70 plus close to 80. but well i should still be able to make it. becos the term test is 20%. still got 80% more to catch up. so no wry. phew~
had CSW letter writing test ytd. well i should be able to score as i've got my format n content right. i was v satisfied with my work. just that the air-con was so cold that i almost had difficulty writing n i was shivering terribly. so it kind of slow me down. damn those air-cons haha. but lucky enough i was able to finish on time. so shouldnt be a problem i guess.
i've been stop working for NC for a few months haha. been looking for another stable part time job but couldnt find a gd one. sigh.. i guess i shall continue to search patiently. as for the surveyor job. well it's v gd. as in the pay is damn gd haha. but it's not v stable i think. becos the company gives me the impression that they only needs surveyors when there r projects to be done. but well since im only a newcomer i still dont know much about the company. so i shall continue to stick around n see what has it got to offer. ;)
alright i think that's all haha. gd night! to be continued.. :D

25 - 31 Dec

2009-01-03T17:17:00.000+08:00

alright! finally my dearest laptop is working properly since i've manage to recover the laptop's original setting. ;) been "missing" for some time due to some internet problems haha. anyway i think i've fix all the problems. everything should be alright by now.
ok here's what happen to me while i was "missing in action". :X
25 Dec: MERRY XMAS! :D met up with her in the afternoon at orchard n had an early dinner tgt. after dinner we did some shopping here n there til evening n then we went to see the lightings n decorations along the street. at the same i was also being "tortured" by her. both physically n mentally. it always happen whenever i go out with her. poor me huh? lol! anyway we took some pictures tgt til around 9pm n went home after that. n also. i gave her a necklace as a xmas gift while she gave me a pair of bermudas. :) :)
31 Dec 08 - 1 Jan 09: was working as a surveyor at sentosa. got 20 surveys to be done. cant go home unless i complete of them. if not no pay haha. i was paid $8 per survey btw. so at 1st i thought i could complete them within like 3 hrs. but i was terribly wrg. becos 1 survey consist of like 8 pages n 1 page has got about 10 qns. so i worked for 6 loooong hrs instead. fr 9pm til 3am. zzz..
after i had completed all the surveys i wanted to go home but i couldnt. i thought that the manager would give us transport allowance on that day. but i was wrg again. the transport allowace is only given to me on the day i recieve my pay. as in the $20 transport allowance will be added into my pay. n plus i didnt bring enough cash with me. so i got no choice but to stay overnight at sentosa.
but lucky enough there's a crew resting area for me. so i slept over there til 7am n went home after that. was damn tired the next day haha. but anyway. HAPPY NEW YR! :D
i think that's all i could remember. lol. :X anyway to be continued.. lol!

I Hate Viruses

2008-12-18T20:19:00.000+08:00

im sooo lonely at home since 13th of dec. my family members had went to penang for a 1 week holiday without me. becos there r not enough tickets. n thus im being "abandoned" at home haha. anyway i wouldnt want to go also due to some personal reasons.
hmm for the past few days i've been feeling like a "cd scavenger" in the hse playing "cd hunt". zzz.. actually what happen was that i need to reformat the pc becos the windows was corrupted n i cant boot to windows. n according to my pc-pro cousin. the only way for me to fix the problem is to reformat. after he taught me the hows of reformatting. i went to ransack all the cupboards in the hse to look for the windows xp cd but couldnt find. n so i went to download the OS using my laptop.
after i finish downloading the OS. i need to burn it into a cd. but i dont have a program in the laptop that can allow me to burn cd. n so i went to download UltraISO n successfully burn the OS into the cd.
though it was my 1st time reformatting a pc. the process was kind of smooth. until the drivers installation part. again i ransack the hse just to look for the cd to install the drivers. n i couldnt find the cd. after calling my cousin to tell him about the problem. i was taught to go to the motherboard manufacturer website to download the software.
after downloading n installing the software. the pc is finally reformatted n obviously all the files r gone. i hope my father wont make a big fuss out of it becos all of his documents pictures musics n etc r gone as well. but i doubt so. i can guarentee that he'll make a few noises for sure. zzz..
alright now though the pc is done. i cant connect to the internet. so i called the singnet svc hotline n after some talking n configurations of the internet options. everything was running smoothly once again for the pc.
now guess what happen next. my dearest laptop is infected with virus n it has become laggy. omg! i seriously dont know how it happen. looks like the McAfee virus scanning n Lavasoft Ad-aware program r kind of useless. if not how would the laptop be infected with virus. anyway i went to download AVG antivirus but due to some unknown reasons i cant run it after installation. so i deleted it n reinstall it again. but still it didnt work. zzz..
since there's a problem AVG. i downloaded the avast antivirus n it seems pretty gd n working. but my laptop is still kind of laggy.. zzz.. hmm maybe i need to reformat my laptop as well. lol! no wry i've learned the basics of reformatting a pc. hehe. ;)
ok i'll stop here. to be continued..

Forget It

2008-12-15T10:59:00.000+08:00

hmm i've been staying at home slacking for the past 1 week since the 5th of december when my term test ended. n im feeling kind of guilty now. lol. but no wry. i'll make sure i get myself out of the house tmr.
it has been some time since i go to the court n play some balls haha. reason is becos my previous shoes r terribly spoiled n i've thrown it away. n also it's not v gd for me to play in slippers. becos i may hurt my foot or damage the slippers. n so right now im looking for an ideal pair of shoes. the shoes must be v durable n is suitable for me to play bball n soccer. so far i've done some shopping n shortlisted some shoes. maybe i'll get 1 of those. :)
well i think i need to beef up myself. i've always feel like some kind of wobbly jelly man. zzz.. after i get my shoes i think i got to do some workout to tone my body a bit. hopefully i can get my shoes asap.
sigh.. once again im sick of working in next concept. the item now is damn ridiculous lah. 3 small pieces of bloody tools hanger for 10 bucks?! omg. seriously i see no reason y i should humiliate myself to promote this kind of rubbish. plus it's so lame! zzz..
becos i wasnt happy with the item. n thus i didnt go to work. n guess what happen. im being suspended. lol! seriously im more than happy to be suspended. if not of the suspension. i'll quit alrdy. anyway becos of the suspension. now i can wait til the item change then i go back again. hopefully NC can change to a more logical items. instead of some rubbish again. i dont mind promoting cookies or chocs. provided they r yummy. but for this kind of so called "tools" thingy. forget it man. -.-"
n also. i've been demoted from the supervisor position. lol! that's the best! i dont want to be humiliated being affiliated with some kind of rubbish u know.
ok i'll stop here for now. to be continued.. ;)

Smile.. :)

2008-12-04T04:05:00.000+08:00

im having my term test this week. well so far so good. though im alrdy in a holiday mood haha. :X i had EMEC test on monday. it was a easy paper. i had not much problem doing the paper. so i guess i should be able to get an A for it. :)
then i had MEK2 test on tuesday. hmm.. no i've got no comments for that paper. lol! becos i didnt study detailed enough n some of the qns i wasnt able to do. so i wrote some crappy answers haha. but still i was able to answer some of the big qns. so hopefully can get an B for it haha. :X
i had my ETRON test today. sigh.. i was a disappointment for me. :( again becos i didnt study detailed enough. missed out a few impt stuffs. kind of regret it. i could have gotten higher marks. plus i wake up late today! i woke up at 8am n my test is at 830am! awesome huh? so i got no choice but to take a cab to school. lucky enough. it only took me 25 mins to go to school. so i was only late for abt 5 mins or so. ok now. guess how much is the trip. lol. actually it didnt cost me much. it just cost me $27. TWENTY SEVEN SGD!! for that moment i feel a sharp pain in my heart when the taxi driver announced the cost to me. 27 bucks flew away just like that. T.T
it's ok. it's alright. life's is meant to have lots of ups n downs. dont cry when things r bad. smile becos it happens. :D im positive. i believe something gd will happen next. hehe!
im having SSTAB paper next on friday. it's also my last paper. i'll make sure i wont disappoint myself again. alright i'll stop here. bye! to be continued.. :)

Horrible Weather :(

2008-11-23T03:46:00.000+08:00

ok everything seems to be back on track soon becos i've photocopied the lecture notes n started a bit on my revision. furthermore the term test is coming up in 2 weeks time. so got to study. i guess i should be able to do well. no problem. im positive. ;)

i had a interview test ytd for CSW (communication skills for work). i guess i did rather well. that's what the lecturer said too. hehe. i can smell a potential 'A' for CSW. hope i can get an 'A' for it. :)

i was down with sore throat a few days ago. but sore throat is just only the warm up. normally a fever will come n visit me after a sore throat haha. n true enough i did have a slight fever. but after i ate some medicine the fever is gone alrdy. weird huh? i suppose the cause of my fever is due to the weird weather. the weather nowadays.. sigh.. :(

alright got to stop here. time for me to revise my work. bye. to be continued.. :)

???

2008-11-12T00:59:00.000+08:00

im so lost n confused right now. there r so many stuffs in my mind recently. my mind is somehow in a chaos state. everything is like so messed up. n i just cant seems to be able to sort the things out at the moment. :(
this week is the 5th week of the term n guess what. i haven got all my lecture notes yet. cool huh? well becos i forgot to give my name to the class chairman to print my set of notes n so now i got to borrow the notes from my friends n photocopy them on my own. zzz..
ok next is becos i dont have the notes n so i couldnt follow n understand what the lecturers r teaching in class. a new formulae or theory will appear somehow suddenly n i catch nothing at all. omg. this isnt a v good start of the term. also im going to have term test on the 8th week. if i dont buck up.. sigh.. :( ok nvm. it's alright. im cool. i shall settle it 1 by 1.

poly yr 2 is tougher than i thought. :X but i should be able to cope. so no wry. im cool. ;D

that's all for now. to be continued..

My Personality :D

2008-11-02T14:59:00.000+08:00

hehe! i found my personality type. here is it:

The Phlegmatic / Sanguine
If you are a phlegmatic-sanguine, your phlegmatic side will dominate. This will result in a greater tendency to introversion (though still less than a melancholic’s or pure phlegmatic’s). You are congenial and cooperative and get along well with most everyone. Because of your emphasis on harmony in relationships, you are peace-loving, conservative, well-balanced, easy-going, with a dry wit and a talent for bringing people together. As an employee, you are compliant, dutiful, orderly, and subdued (and probably were as a child too). Others may not realize that you have a sanguine side -- at first. It may take a little longer for you to make close friends (because you do not reveal your feelings or thoughts as readily as the more extraverted sanguine-phlegmatic), but once you do, your sanguine nature can assert itself. It will also show up when, for example, you have been so dutiful and compliant about work or school that finally you need to relax and unwind — and now the sanguine, fun-loving side comes out. Or, when you are hanging out with your closest friends.
You are very thoughtful of others, with a knack for empathically putting yourself in other people’s shoes, and value peace and harmony at all times. You also have a great sense of humor and an easy-going manner that makes you a valued friend. You are discouraged by criticism or negativity and need acceptance, support and cooperation in your personal life. You can be deeply wounded by sarcasm, harsh criticism, and anger when it is directed at you. You will not, however, directly fight back but prefer to “turn the other cheek” or redouble your efforts to please.
Phlegmatic-sanguines tend to prefer movies, concerts, or other forms of relaxation that are a bit more spectator-oriented. When they attend parties, they tend to prefer smaller groups, rather than the large social gatherings a pure sanguine enjoys. Like sanguine-phlegmatics, they are very attentive to relationships, to harmony among people. They have deep feelings, hate negative criticism, and become discouraged by negativity in those around them. They are strongly tempted to repress their own wishes in order to preserve peace in a relationship. A stressful situation (especially one that is interpersonally demanding) may cause the peaceful phlegmatic-sanguine to withdraw into solitary television watching, playing computer games, eating or sleeping, instead of directly expressing their negative feelings.
A danger for the phlegmatic-sanguine is to be satisfied with achieving less than what he is capable of -- whether because he tends not to plan for the future or because the more challenging goals seem to be “too much trouble.” A phlegmatic-sanguine will be strongly tempted to quit if he doesn’t think the end product is worth the effort or if he fears he won’t succeed. Perhaps the most besetting difficulties for this temperament mixture are the natural inclination to peace and quiet (tempting one to laziness), a preference to live within the moment (superficiality), and a tendency to make decisions based first on the desire to please someone else or to restore harmony.
In a relationship, the phlegmatic-sanguine is true-blue. He is likely to be a great listener, is willing to put others first, and has excellent mediatory skills. You are a supportive friend and a cooperative employee; however, this can cause you to say “yes” to demands of friends or colleagues, without first analyzing whether this choice is actually the best choice to make. At times, wanting to either please your good friends or avoid conflict either at home or at work, you may “go with the flow” when in fact a strong stance is necessary. Or, you may avoid a more demanding task or career move in order to maintain harmony and stability. If you find yourself “stuck in a rut” or avoiding making the extra effort required to make an important change, take time out to analyze your goals for the future, realign your priorities to reflect your values and, if necessary, seek spiritual direction to ensure that your values are aligned with God’s will for you.

source from: http://www.4marks.com/temperaments.html
to be continued.. :)

Deepavali "Celebration"

2008-10-28T02:52:00.000+08:00

^ that's the reason

i just came back from msia JB. had a bbq over there at 1 of my relative's house to celebrate deepavali. however n sadly it wasnt a celebration for me. i went there v unwillingly. becos an idiot whom i need to depend on for pocket $$ "asked" me to go along. well fair enough. since ur the only 1 who is bringing the bread n butter home. i'll repect u for that n obey u. n also i cant be bothered to fight or quarrel with u. so i'll just go. even though ur f***ed up at times.
but just u wait. once im financially independent. i'll leave for goodness sake. becos i dread seeing that "beautiful" face n that "amazing" attitude of urs. but of cos i dont mind having breakfast lunch or dinner with u. i just cant stand it when u scold me without even understanding the situation. wow! im lost for words to describe how gd u r.
of cos i'll forgive u since u've also forgive my mistakes. i'll do my best to be a gd son n i hope that u too can wake up someday.
ok time to sleep. lesson starts at 830am tmr. zzz.. im going to be punctual. lol! :X to be continued..

Sigh..

2008-10-26T13:36:00.000+08:00

to my beloved girl.
from the deepest bottom of my heart. i strongly believe that i did show u care n concern when u r feeling down or sick. though im v sry that i neglected u sometimes. but pls forgive me for that becos im a human too n i have my flaws n make mistakes.
im not a audio kind of person. so pls pardon me for not giving u any words of encouragement at times when u talk to me about ur problems n stuffs. becos i cant understand much about ur situation just from listening ur words. im more of a visual n action kind of person. i need to see n touch to understand. so i would need u to show me the situation if u need me to help u better. i hope u get what i mean.
n honestly i feel so stressed up whenever i talk to u. pls give me a break man. im not a criminal u know. so pls stop "interrogating" me can? isnt it better to talk n ask nicely? as in cant we talk a more casual way? rather than being so serious.

to my dearest father.
i know im not a great son of urs. but b4 u want to criticise me further. pls look at the mirror 1st can? n pls look at ur damn self. how do u want me to "set a gd example" for my younger brothers if u r not setting a gd example urself for me to follow. if im a bastard u'll be a fcuking hypocrite.
can i ask u to come n c the things from my point of view instead of just seeing it only from ur point of view? if u dont want to it's ok. i dont expect u to. but the worst is that u think that ur always right. come on lah. omg. seriously im so sick this idiotic attitude of urs i cant be bothered by u.
i admit that i make mistakes n i understand that u r scolding me for my own gd. i know that scolding is part n parcel of upbringing n growing up. i also know that u want me to be successful. n i thank u for that n providing me with a comfortable life. but i hope that u wont make me hate u becos that's the worst thing that can happen. i dont want to hate u ok. though my feelings for u now is neutral. as in there isnt any hatred nor much love. im still learning to accept u for who u r. so well give me some time. i dont know. zzz..

to my dearest mother.
i've always want to thank u for all that u've done for me. i do appreciate ur help n concern. i just want to say a big THANK YOU to u. :)

this sums up my mood n feelings for today. to be continued..

Im Back

2008-10-24T13:29:00.000+08:00

hmm seems like i've been "missing" for some time haha. well the reason is becos i was kind of "busy" for the past few days as i was too engrossed in customising the theme of my windows. n also exploring the internet for more desktop designs n options. actually i've been wanting to change the looks of the operating system but didnt know how to or where to start. but all thanks to Siong Kai. he taught me how n i figure a little bit out on my own n i've manage to change the theme! hehe! :D im so in love with my laptop now. it's so drop dead gorgeous n awesome! X)
n btw. Terry, David, KX n i went to SK's place to celebrate his bday on last sun 19 oct. well it was only a v simple celebration. we gave SK a surprise visit with a bday cake. i know that SK was touched to tears though his expression didnt show it. lol. then we ate the cake n chit chatted tgt for a few hrs n went home after that. though it's a simple celebration but we learned something new. which is about pain olympics. i think that's the most unforgettable part for the bday celebration. lol! google "pain olympics" n u'll know what i mean. WARNING: it's rated R21 n not suitable for the faint hearted. watch at ur own risk! :X
1st week of school was not v gd for me. i missed a few lesson as i couldnt wake up on time. n i discover that i got this problem. which is that i have difficulty waking up early in the morning. the thing is i didnt sleep v late. the latest time i'll go to bed is by 1am. (erm.. i suppose 1am is consider reasonable? lol.) so i dont know y i just cant wake up. i've tried to sleep earlier but it didnt solve the problem. maybe im just too used to the holidays haha. anyway it's ok. always think of the +ve side. this may turn out to be a blessing in disguise. u never know. hehe! ;)
ok i'll stop here. gd night n to be continued..

Weakness Within

2008-10-16T14:03:00.000+08:00

^ the solution to overcome weakness?

perhaps im not that strong after all. be it physically or mentally. sometimes i feel so weak. both physically n mentally. this kind of lousy feeling. sigh.. it sux u know. :( i know im lacking something. that mysterious something. n im still finding out what is it that im lacking. hopefully the mystery can be solved asap.
holidays r over. time to go back to school. nothing much happen as the 1st week is often the "introduction week". n it doesnt matter if i did go to school or not haha. i skip 1 of the lesson today. :X becos it's a waste of time as there's only 1 lesson today which from 1-3pm n there wont be any teaching at all. so i chose not to go to school.
also im going to have ITP after this sem during the holidays. omg. my holidays r gone. zzz.. :( im still considering where to go for that attachment. or should i say i dont know where i want to go. lol. :X though im fine with shipyards. but something inside me is telling me that there r better options than going to the shipyards for ITP.
as for work. gone r those photo frames n chocs. selling italian cookies now. though i doubt that all the ingredients r from italy. but hey the cookies r nice ok! :D i tried them n it taste damn gd. n it's an easy product to sell too. hehe! ;)
alright i'll stop here for today. to be continued..

:P

2008-10-08T14:50:00.000+08:00

^ that was close.. (almost got tricked n fell down for my case :P)

ok i played bball at the bball court near my place just now. suddenly feel like exercising n thus went to play bball. played a 2v2 match with the neighbourhood people. i was team up with a noob. no wry im fine with that. i dont look down on him becos i know i was once a noob in bball too. besides im not v pro either. im just a average player. n i dont intend to be get serious for the match becos i dont want to damage my specs haha. hey my specs r expensive ok haha. anyway the other team was made up of a tall guy while the other guy was slightly shorter than me.
though the other guy is shorter but i got to admit that he's much skillful than me. damn it. he's damn fast lah! i was like so shock. didnt expect him to be that fast. not only that. he is able to dribble well with both of his hands. which also means that he is able to attack in any direction. i was struggling to catch up with him. i tried playing hard n soft with him but both didnt work. n i almost fell down u know!! omg! imagine how humiliating it is if i fell down. lucky i regained my balance. if not arh.. i'll slap myself man! damn it!! ankle breaker? wrong guy dude. im not that noob ok! >:P
actually there's also like "enviroment" factor that affected me. becos im not used to playing in the dark. though there r lights. i just cant see the ring clearly n i was kind of like "where's the ring huh?". hey this isnt an excuse ok. this is a fact. :P
ok i admit that i hate to lose. on the outside i may seems to be v sportsman but inside me i'll be like "omg! how did i lose to this dumb ass?". lol! as in only when im playing with those not so pro people. but sometimes when i play against or with the pros i really have to 五体投地 n learn from them. i'll copycat their skills! hehe! smart huh? anyway i've also learned something from this match. i'll need to brush up my "attack in the night" n defence. XD
alright i'll stop here for now. time for bed. nights n to be continued..

Overcoming The Inertia

2008-10-06T14:25:00.000+08:00

i guess sometimes in life 1 has to unlearn something n relearn something else. i used to learn that it's wiser to keep quiet n not to say anything unnecessarily. but later on i found out that keeping quiet isnt always right. 1 has to talk more instead. but of cos 1 must watch what he says. that's the difficult part. n also i got to admit that it's difficult to change habits. worst when im born stubborn. sigh.. it'll require lots of discipline for me. give me some time. i'll change. :) yes i WILL change. i know it's just a matter of time when i break through the barrier.
allow me to shout here. AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!! ok i feel much better now le. hehe!
ok i'll stop here. to be continued.. RROOAARR!! ;D

花果山 Gathering

2008-10-03T04:09:00.000+08:00

had soccer n bball with ex-classmates from 2C n 4A ytd. it has been some time since we met up with each other. there r lots of ppl who came. 9 ppl in total if im not wrong. lazy to write down all their names here haha. :P anyway it was fun playing with them. n it has always been so fun. :D we started off playing bball 1st. n after that soccer. we played soccer with some ppl from the neighbourhood n got thrashed haha. well kind of expected as they r more skillful than us. it would be a different case if it's bball. hehe. we rested a while after that. some of them went to have lunch the others were just sitting around n chat to catch up with 1 another. then we carry on with our bball n soccer matches again. i was slowing down my pace as i didnt have my lunch n was kind of feeling tired alrdy. we played til 4pm plus b4 we went home.
i went to take a shower once i reached home n then had my lunch. laid on my comfy bed after lunch as i was damn exhausted. it took some time for me to found out that i had sunburns on my neck n a bit on my face. but v surprisingly. the sunburns seems to have burned all the pimples away haha. becos most of the pimples on my face have gone le. :D im in love with the sun! i hope dear isnt jealous. lol! XP
ok i'll stop here for now. still feeling kind of tired. due to hangover i suppose haha. anyway gtg. time to make a cup of milo for myself. ok bye bye n to be continued..

:D

2008-09-26T03:22:00.000+08:00

the weather has been kind of humid lately. cannot take it man. i can even perspire straight after i bathe. omg. n worst it's causing so many pimples on my face. zzz.. it's alright. im used to this. this is life in spore haha.
anyway as usual i went to the monthly BBS that was held at SP a few days ago on sunday. actually b4 i went there i was feeling kind of discouraged n demoralised. becos i couldnt hit my goal n i know the problem is that i lack the courage n confidence. after the BBS the 1 impt lesson i took home is that no 1 succeeds without overcoming their fear. the only way to overcome fear is to trust in own ability n do the job anyway in spite of the fear. the more the practices the higher the confidence level. n this kind of knock some sense into me as i realise that i need take action if not i'll always be stagnant. :X
so guess what. i manage to come out with some plans. hehe! X) well i dont know if what i came up with is recommended or not. but that's what i could think of so far. i carried out the plan ytd. it was frightening man! i was hesitant as lots n lots of thoughts went through my mind. but in the end i did it. thank God for the courage haha. :D however the result wasnt gd. i carry it out again today n it isnt gd either. but if i see it from a long term point of view. it seems gd u know haha. ok at least im taking some actions. no wry. i'll improve on it. hehe! ;)
2 more weeks of holidays b4 sch starts. omg! i hate to wake up early in the morning at 6am. it's a torment for me u know. sigh.. n i know that i'll be late for sure. no need any guarantee or warranty card haha. but of cos i'll try to be punctual n v importantly is to pay attention in class. i dont want to study til 4am again. lol. :X also most of the modules for next sem seems interesting. hehe! although there r a few "orbit" ones. it's time to pull up my gpa. more maths n physics realated modules = higher gpa. X)
as for work. all i can say is thank God. so far so gd. i wanted to quit but i need to have a back up plan 1st u see. n that back up plan must also works. n that's the plan i mention above haha. hmm i've predict that it'll take some time b4 the back up plan works out. so i wont be quitting NC so soon. plus the pay from NC is gd. so no harm staying a little longer haha.
alright that's all for now. bye! to be continued.. :D

Yr 2 Sem 1 Results :X

2008-09-18T14:42:00.000+08:00

ok i got back my results. well it was below average. got a sem gpa of 3.25 haha. feeling kind of disappointed. but didnt get bothered much. becos of a few reasons. 1st reason - i was kind of slack n lazy this sem n i didnt put in much effort. maybe that's y the results. 2nd reason - i've somehow decided that most probably i may want to take those 1 or 1.5 yrs private degree in the future if i want to further my studies. becos i see no point studying for another 3 yrs when i can complete degree studies in a shorter time. i know it's a few thousand bucks more expensive. but those $$ can be earned back. 3rd reason - i see no chance of me getting into a local Uni haha. im not academically incline u know. :X
back to the results. i got a cumulative gpa of 3.374. im satisfied with this n i intend to maintain my results of least at 3.3 haha. then for the modules grades. as expected i got an A or both MATH n ATHM. lol! :X hey becos i work v hard for this 2 modules ok haha. though it's last min hard work. lol! X) then i got a B+ for CAD. B for CPROG n EIC. C+ for INSTR n D+ for that bloody TFAM. the grade for CAD is understandable becos i did well for my weekly assignments but didnt do v well for my test paper due to the screw up n damn program. the grade for CPROG n EIC is kind of expected also. but for INSTR i was expecting at least a B. sigh.. i know i sux at memorising haha. as for TFAM. heck care lah. so in conclusion i think INSTR n that idiotic TFAM pulled my gpa down. sigh.. it's ok. it's not the end of the world haha. :D
anyway i went to her place on tuesday to ate spaghetti tgt with her. she made the spaghetti herself n surprisingly it was v nice n i had 2 servings. lol. :X n she was surprisingly sweet too when she gave me a gift which has the letter 'Z' on it. lol! X) thanks so much dear! :D
played bball again with terry n david in the afternoon n surprisingly i played well haha. omg! i was so damn.. u should know the word. no need for me to say. lol! XD ok lah anyway i was v exhausted after the bball game n my heels were in pain as i was too fast n too furious le. lol! joking lah. i think it's becos i didnt warm up b4 the game n thus the minor injury. i also sprained the middle finger of my right hand n the last finger of my left hand. zzz.. painful u know. ouch! :(
alright i'll stop here for now. gtg sleep alrdy. nights n to be continued..

A Noob To A Pro

2008-09-16T02:21:00.000+08:00

i hate being a noob. the feelings of feeling lousy is so demoralising. sigh.. how can one fight for smthg when he doesnt have the skills to do so. but of cos i understand that every1 has to go through this phrase of being a noob 1st b4 turning into a pro. got to learn the basics 1st. tgt with lots of practices.
i know my capabilities. i believe i can achieve more n my best is yet to come. i know my performance graph. i'll start off v steady due to beginner's luck. n when that luck ran out the graph will drop to the min point n that's when i sux. then from there the graph will rise slowly as i learn the basics til it reach a constant when i've acquire the basic skills. n the graph will rise if i keep practicing til it reach a max point. that's when i'll turn pro then become a legend. lol! X)
anyway my family was invited to my cousin's (SX n PS) wedding ytd. v loving couple. n from what i heard is that they've been tgt since sec school days. well my job for ytd was to take photos. order given by father haha. tried to compete with the professional photographer. but seriously n obviously i couldnt. the flash from his camera is enough to blind my camera. n worst my father's camera is kind of lag also. zzz..
ok i'll stop here for now. gtg for lunch. bye! to be continued..

I Can

2008-09-10T13:46:00.000+08:00

damn it. im so dead broke now even though i got a job. i used to be 'financially stable'. i was able to buy the stuffs i want or go out for a movie or dine at some restaurants. but i couldnt do that now. i have to manage my earned $$ n plan v carefully on what i can or cannot spend on. it takes just like $1 to determine what food i eat or whether i need to starve again or not. but fortunately. thank God that i didnt starve to death becos there'll always have food at home haha. n also thank God that the $$ i earned r enough for me to carry on. :)
thought of quitting. but after listening to 1 of the cd by Mike Wilson. it kind of motivate me to carry on. just like him. im sick n tired of being sick n tired. i need to do smthg about my life if not the vicious cycle will go on. n worst this vicious cycle doesnt just affect me alone. it'll also affects my current n future family members. look at the inflation now. it's hitting the roof man. n it's going to overshoot the roof in yrs to come. i dont want to suffer in the future u know. n i hate to see the people around me suffering. "God help those people who help themselves." make sense huh? i know it's not going to be easy. but i'll pick up the courage to do what i need to do. i can do it n i'll find a way to do it.
i know that it's just a matter of time. i just have to carry on doing what i need to do n i'll get the rewards.
i'll stop here for now. to be continued..

1st Week Holiday

2008-09-06T14:44:00.000+08:00

met up with david, desmond n terry on monday to play bball at the new court near buangkok mrt. had breakfast with them at the kopitiam nearby b4 we played. it has been a v long time since i played bball. so my skills r kind of rusty le haha. but i could still can dribble, shoot n pass well even though not as good as b4. couldnt dribble as fast as b4. n for shooting not as accurate but passing still can make it. lol. :X
i rmb there was a period of time when me n david used to keep the bball court clean n thrash our opponents in the neighbourhood. omg. those were the days man. lol! XD it was during our school days sec 3 n 4 days when we were kind of 'addicted' to bball n we played bball almost everyday haha. i think our standard were almost on par with the spore national team. maybe slightly less skilled n experienced than them. lol. however after our O levels we deteriorated becos we stopped playing. sigh.. but it's ok lah. since we just played only for fun. doesnt really matter to me. :)
went to John Paul's chalet on tuesday to celebrate his bday. Wei Juan, Phyllis, Choon Teck n Hock Ann was there as well. we spent the night bbq-ing, playing poke cards n drinking vodka mixed with some other drinks. we also chatted tgt to catch up with 1 another. CT n HA were the 1st few to sleep. then after that followed by JP n WJ. Phyllis n i wasnt able to sleep yet so we continue to chit chat n shortly after that we went to sleep. but the fact is that i wasnt able to fall asleep until 7am. i was feeling so lonely for the whole night. zzz..
accompanied dear to see the doctor on friday as she was sick. had lunch at her place n went to an interview for a surveyor job after that at somewhere near novena. well the pay is attractive. $15 per survey. but sadly i dont think im going to get the job becos the interview was like less than 5 mins. the person just talk to me about the scope of the job n then told me that they'll call me again next week if im shortlisted. i was like asking a few questions to lengthen the duration of the interview. lol. anyway i dont expect much out of this interview. it'll be a bonus for me if i got the job. everything is worth a try. hehe. ;)
as for the air-con job. well i dont think it can work out for me. heck care n full stop. lol. :X but im still in next concept. selling chocs n photoframe now. chocs r still ok. but photoframe.. zzz.. orbit products again. no choice man. im financially tight n i need the $$. thank God for assisting me to sell away those orbit products becos i seriously dont understand y would people want to buy such crappy stuffs. lol. n thank God for my sales n weekly pay. it's time to change my job man haha.
alright i'll stop here for now. bye n to be continued.. X)

Yr 2 Sem 1

2008-09-01T03:12:00.000+08:00

well sem exams ended a few days ago on friday. the feeling of freedom is so omg. hehe! X) overall i think i did rather well for my exams. there r high chances of getting an 'A' for ATHM n MATH. for INSTR, CPROG n CAD. chances of getting an 'A' is lower but still possible. then for EIC i think i'll most probably get a 'B'. TFAM forget it man. a 'C' or 'D' will do haha. heck care! :X
i rmb sleeping at 4am for 2 nights just to revise my ATHM. becos i couldnt sleep until i understood the topics. this module gave me lots of headache. but i enjoyed the module becos of the physics involved. it's interesting u know haha. MATH wasnt much of a problem to me. hints were given for INSTR n so i just memorise n understand the instruments given in the hints. CPROG, CAD n TFAM talk b4 alrdy. so i shall not talk further. lazy lah haha. :P n EIC (effective interpersonal communication) is actually my gems module. just got to do a role play for my final test haha. n that's all for my yr 2 sem 1. :D
i went out with her ytd to COMEX. was feeling kind of pissed with myself becos i overslept n didnt manage to meet her on time n she got upset with me. im so sry dear. :( but fortuantely i manage to "charm" her n she forgave me. lol! XD anyway we had a great time together. us usual i was "bullied" by her again. poor me huh? lol! we had lunch n dinner together n went home after she n i had bought our stuffs at sim lim n COMEX.
alright i'll just stop here for now. lost for words le haha. ok lah bye. to be continued..

ATHM & MATH Revision

2008-08-25T06:49:00.000+08:00

i've been feeling kind of moody these few days. probably due to stress as exams r coming. sigh.. i was practising ATHM since friday til ytd n u know what. i've got great news. every questions i've attempted so far. i only got 1 question correct. the others all wrong! zzz.. this is not a v good sign. :( actually i dont think there's anything wrong with my equations or workings. maybe the answers provided r wrong. due to typo error. lol! okok im talking crap haha. i know im wrong. sigh.. how i wish im born a genius. but sadly no 1 is born a genius. every1 is born as a baby. so i intend to go to school on monday to see the lecturer. i've got so many tutorial questions i want to ask him. argh! help me Mr Ang! lol. anyway i did my MATH just now too. i was able to do the tutorial questions. but there r still some typo mistakes here n there. lol! ok my bad. i made some careless mistakes. but overall i understand the topics i've revised. :) so not much worry for my MATH. but i would also want to see my MATH lecturer to clarify some questions. right now all i hope is that i've enough time to complete all my revision. especially INSTR. there r sooo many things to rmb for INSTR. omg. zzz.. :(
i went to school ytd as well to look for my INSTR lecturer but he's not in. zzz.. anyway i stayed in school to study while waiting for her to be dismissed from her last paper. we went to catch a movie after that at AMK hub. we had lunch together b4 we watched "Meet Dave". to me the movie is rather interesting. n kind of retarded as well. lol. had a great laugh. got to laugh my stress away haha. but she didnt enjoyed the movie becos she thinks that the movie is v lame. well i got to agree with her that it's kind of lame n boring. anyway the most important thing is that i want to thank her for treating me to the movie. thank you v much dear! that's v sweet of u. love u lots k? :D
omg! how can arsenal lost to fulham?! i hate it when arsenal lose matches. :( i watched the match this morning n it was so disappointing. arsenal was so sloppy throughout the match. zzz.. the defence was ok. but the midfielders wasnt v impressive n the strikers cannot make it man. the passing wasnt v well n the shots r not even decent. free kicks went soaring towards the sky n the shots were not even on target. sigh..
ok lah i got to stop here for now. got to rush for my revision. just taking some time out to blog to destress haha. anyway bye. to be continued..

Aug WLS

2008-08-20T02:34:00.000+08:00

ok im back from msia WLS. was feeling damn tired n hungry when i came back becos i didnt slept n ate well over there haha. but of cos i didnt regret going there. the seminar n the speakers r damn amazing. no words can actually describe how superb was the WLS. one has got to be there to experience the brilliant atmosphere. :D
what impacted me throughout the 3 day seminar is that i just need to be a little bit more serious n persistent n i can achieve what i want. n obviously work is involve as well if i want results. no work = no results. simple as this. i also realise that i got to take out the thumb in my mouth n just do it haha. n the best thing is that i had told KW that im going to LC by the next WLS n it's a done deal. omg!! i dont know how im going to do it man! i dont even know why did i give him my promise in the 1st place. lol. but i know that's the only way to sort of 'force' me to do the work haha. i got to do it by hook or by crook. it's a done deal u know. omg. ok i must believe in myself. i can do it. lol!
anyway i think i got to go n study now. exams r coming up next week. im going to get an A for the rest of the paper n this is guarantee plus warranty card a 100% done deal haha. i've not been doing v well for the past papers so now it's time to buck up for my INSTR, ATHM n EMATH. ok i'll stop here for now. bye! XD

Tanker Sux! :(

2008-08-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

had my CPROG test a few days ago. well it wasnt v well done nor it's v terribly done. i was able to do the paper. my answers r kind of right to a certain extend but dont seems v right when i refer back to my notes. lol. but my concept of functions should be right becos i did the same thing as what i did for my last test which i did v well. maybe a few marks will be deducted for the wrong display of the functions. i also missed a 18 marks question becos i cant solve the question n i dont have enough time to analyse it. my brain cant process so fast u know. haha. i just need more time. sigh.. 18 marks just like this flew away right in front of my eyes. zzz.. heart pain man. :( i hope the lecturer wont be so strict in her marking.
had my TFAM test in the afternoon just now. i was totally stunned. my heart sank like how the ship titanic sank into the deep ocean when i saw the paper especially section B. becos ALL the questions in that section has got nothing related to what i've studied. as in what i've predicted didnt tally with questions that the lecturer had set. not even 1 question did i predicted correctly. zzz.. i tried to cheat but couldnt. ok i know it's wrong to cheat but desperate time calls for desperate measures. of cos i know the limits of how far i can cheat. i wouldnt want my friend to be in trouble also. so the only solution im left with is to use my common sense to answer the questions which i did for ALL the questions. never in my poly life i've got this kind of pathetic situation man. it was a living nightmare for that 1 hr. nvm forget it. i just hope for a pass will do. :(
anyway as usual i've been thinking a lot n i think that i need to change my posture. i need to learn to have more confidence in myself so that i can speak more confidently in front of people. i dont want to be a shy boy anymore. i want to be a more confident MAN. im serious. i feel so lousy whenever i cant talk properly in front of people becos i feel so shy. this isnt the feeling i want man. i want to have a professional n confident posture. so im going to work on this. hehe. :)
ok i'll stop here for now. got to focus on the exams which r coming up in 2 weeks time. im going to do well for the rest of the papers. hehehe! ok bye. :)

CAD Test

2008-08-08T14:05:00.000+08:00

ytd was a bad day for me. was feeling damn down the whole day. becos i didnt do well for my CAD (computer aided drawing) test. im damn confident enough to say that there was nothing wrong with my coordinates. i've done it so many times. seriously it cant be wrong. furthermore my coordinates is the same as my friend's n that bloody CAD program didnt draw the cylinder n hatch to the position i want. i think the CAD program was screwed up. damn that program. zzz.. ok i know im partly at fault as well. i wasnt well prepared enough for the test as i missed the revision class. but fortunately the exam consist only 25% of the module. so there's still a chance i can get an A. i hope my assignments marks can pull me up.
i met up with honey ytd as well. actually we r just only planning to have lunch together. but suddenly she wanted to watch a movie so we went to catch a movie at cineleisure even though our dress code was kind of too casual. lol! anyway we watched 'the mummy 3'. it was a superb movie. after the movie we went to shop for a while n had an icecream n we went home after that.
today is actually the 1st time i was looking forward to TFAM lesson. lol! becos i was hoping that the lecturer will give us some hints so that i dont need to study so hard for the idiotic module. as i've mentioned earlier the lecture notes is like 1.7cm thick. i cant possibly memorise all the things. so lucky enough the lecturer did give us hints. hehe. mission accomplished. X)
ok it's time for me to go to sleep. kind of late so i shall stop here for now. good night n bye. :D

Crap!

2008-08-02T11:22:00.000+08:00

omg! im feeling so damn stress. i may look calm on the ouside but inside is like.. i dont know what's the word. sigh.. anyway im going to have TFAM (tanker familiarisation) exam is 2 weeks time. seriously i dont know how am i going to study for it man. the lecture notes is like 1.7cm thick. wth? cant expect me to memorise every single bloody shit. zzz.. no choice lah. it's either do or die. n worst i CAD exam n math test coming up. :( may God bless me. how i wish the education system can change. then maybe i wouldnt need to take so many bloody donkey exams. :(
lalala! abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz! 123456789! i just feel like writing crap. lol! i need to relieve stress u see. hahaha! ok i know i appear silly n crazy now. who cares man. this is me. hehehe!
ok i got to go n study now. argh! i know i can do it n i'll get it done. gogogo! zzz..

School

2008-08-01T10:10:00.000+08:00

hmm nothing much happen to me during these few days. everyday is the same. wake up early in the morning. travel to sch which often takes around 1 hr plus to reach due to the idiotic traffic jams n after that go home straight after school. it's so mono. zzz.. haha.
recently i've been reading a book entitled "the secret". surprise huh? some1 like me is actually reading a book. becos u see. WeiZheng has grown up le. that's why. lol! well anyway the book is pretty good. it talks about the law of attraction. it's kind of like a self development book becos it teaches people how n why u can n should think positively. i've learn a lot from the book though i still got a few more chapters to read. every1 should read the book. trust me u'll never regret reading the book. :)
school projects r almost done. only left with 1 more project to go which is due next tue. there r a few weeks more to exams. got to start preparing now. as usual im still struggling with the modules. sigh.. but i believe that i can do well for my exams as long as i work for it. what u reap is what u sow. n i have faith in the abilities that God has gave me. hehe. it's important to stay positive too. :D
another thing is that i did damn well for my c-programming practical test. hehehe! i was so surprise when i got my result. it's so damn higher than what i've expected. i was expecting around 75 but i got 91 instead. pro right? lol! seriously i dont know how i got so high. haha. X)
ok time for me to have my dinner now. shall update when i have the time. bye!

My Future?

2008-07-20T02:29:00.000+08:00

^ this is not what i want.

recently i've been thinking about the future. as in what will i be doing few yrs down the road provided that im still not dead yet. haha. ok this is what i thought of. after i've graduate from SP i'll be going to NS for 2 yrs n after that i'll most probably go out to work. maybe i'll be working in a shipyard as a supervisor or maybe some other occupation? who knows. n i've figured it out that university isnt for me. becos i dont think my parants have the financial ability to send me to a local university. let alone overseas. i dont want to burden them any further also. so the only choice left for me is to work. unless i work n save up the $$ to go to university. i dont know..
so i've been thinking. am i going to slog n receive a pathetic pay for the rest of my life? i cant imagine that man. working for the next 40 yrs? omg. can die u know! haha. hmm let's say maybe im lucky enough n i get promotions. but wouldnt that just simply means that i'll have heavier responsibilities which translates into more work for me to do? so what if i got higher pay. i'll be too busy to spend the $$! n i'll have less time to spend with my family members n to do what i want. zzz..
i think life is more than just getting up early in the morning for work, get stuck in the traffic jam or board a crowded bus/mrt when going to work, come home feeling damn tired after work n then get ready for the next working day again. there's no life at all man. furthermore the standard of living is getting higher n higher. how hard working can one be? can one's hard work match with the rapid increase of the standard of living? there must be something that can break this 'vicious cycle'.
wouldnt it be great if one can choose what he/she wants to do on a monday morning? wouldnt it be great if one can spend quality time with his/her family members? wouldnt it be great if one can be financially free n break away from the 'rat race'? unless u r those kind of people who get excited going to work on a monday morning n enjoys slogging for the next 40 yrs.
anyway enough of my thoughts. time to get back to reality. i got back my thermodynamics n instrumentation results this week. i did well for thermodynamics but could have score higher if not for some careless mistakes. n sigh.. i did badly for my instrumentation becos my answer wasnt detailed n specific enough even though it's the right answer. it's ok. at least i know where i got wrong n i shall improve on it.
had c-programming test on thursday. to be specific it's actually c++ programming. haha. overall my program works. just that there's some part that didnt work well. n some part of the programming is wrong. lol. anyway the test is over. i did study for it n i hope i can get at least a B+. :)
ok i shall stop here now. time for me to do my projects n reports. bye!

Work Work..

2008-07-11T07:15:00.000+08:00

i've early dismissal today. was dismiss at 1 instead of 3pm. ate lunch in school with classmates b4 going home. slept in the bus on the way home n miss my stop again. haha. so i alighted at hougang festival market n bought a strawberry sundae at mcdonalds. walk home from there after that. n here i am at home blogging now. :D
i've been feeling stress these few weeks. school work. relationship. part time job n career. so on n so forth. my life became so packed all of a sudden. well it seems that im still struggling to adapt to this 'new' schedule of mine. haha. trying to learn to move out of my comfort zone. but i hope im not trying too hard. lol.
2nd year's work is indeed tougher than 1st year's work. nonetheless im still able to cope. i cant imagine 3rd year's work man. omg. lol. as for relationship with her. all i can say is that i love her lots. even though there r some hiccups at times but somehow we'll solve the problem together. hehe. :) as for work..nothing great to mention about. zzz..
i'll stop here here now. got to rush to complete my homework now. going to work later also. sigh.. ok bye.

Study & Work

2008-07-07T13:47:00.000+08:00

ouch! i've sprained my right thigh. haha. was actually playing soccer with bro just now in the afternoon n then i think i over exerted my leg. thus causing the sprain. i hope my leg will recover fast. anyway it's just a minor sprain. so there's nothing much to worry about. no worries. :)

i going to be busy these few days. got a few assignments to complete by this coming week. firstly i've 3 assignments n 1 group project for c-programming. the 3 assignments r needed to be handed in by this tuesday while the dateline for the project is 1 week later. i've completed 1 assignment so im left with 2 more to go. secondly there's 1 annoying tanker assignment (seriously im not going to sail after i graduate. so actually i dont see the point of studying this module. just studying it for the sake of my gpa). it's halfway done. next there's a math group project which is due by..erm..i dont know. lol! n there're more assignments n projects on the way as well. anyway my 1st priority now is to complete my c-programming assignments 1st. i should be able to complete all 3 of them on time. ;)
bad news! im going to have c-programming test in 2 weeks time! omg. i need to do well for this paper. if not gpa is going to slide. becos i didnt do well for the previous test. so this test is v crucial for me u know. n yup im going to start my revision now. not much time left. :( n also semester exams r nearing. time to gear up n give my best shot. btw tmr most probably i'll be getting back my thermodynamics n instrumentation result. hope i did well for both of them. wish me luck. X)
ok next thing - next concept. guess what's the new product for this month? it's actually some kind of v funny coasters. zzz.. well it's saleable but it's damn difficult. :( omg. i dont know how im going to carry on like this man. for the air-con thingy. so far i've only tried 1 block but sigh..no results yet. but i believe that some1 from that 1 block will surely ring me up for a deal. anyway i'll do more blocks this coming weekend. hopefully i can clinch a few deals. if all these plans fail. no worry. i still have a secret weapon up my sleeve. hehe. ;)
ok that's the end for this entry. bye! lol. XP
oh God. pls bless me.

Watch Ur Attitude

2008-07-05T15:12:00.000+08:00

to whom it may concern.
congrats. u've successfully piss me off. satisfied? n im telling u. fcuk off if u got nothing better to do. ops. haha. seriously i dont like to use vulgar language. i only use it when im v upset. n yes im so upset with u right now. not just upset but utterly disappointed as well.
when u r unhappy it doesnt mean that u can anyhow vent ur anger on me u know. im not ur slave or whatsoever. i dont like this at all. so pls watch ur bloody attitude. if u r unhappy either u shut the fcuk up or u control ur emotions. simple as this. alright?
just for ur infomation. if u r unhappy with some1 else just tell that person. say it nicely of cos. why bottled up all ur feelings n suffer? isnt it easier to voice it out? omg. can u use ur brain n think?! n not let ur emotions to control ur actions. grow up lah! n stop being so fcuked up. if u cant control ur emotions then just keep ur bloody mouth shut. so that u dont offend the people around u. come on. this is for ur own good man. n may i suggest to u that if u want to have a listening ear or a shoulder (sexy shoulder like mine. lol! just joking) to lean on. can u ask nicely? i'll be more than glad to help or comfort u. let ur feelings be known to others so that there wont be so much misunderstanding. is this v difficult? zzz..
sigh.. i dont want to talk about this anymore. sick of it. kind of numb to it alrdy. anyway i'll stop here now. pls 4give my language. :(

Poor C-Prog. :(

2008-07-04T15:47:00.000+08:00

got back all of my test results this week. except for thermodynamics n instrumentation results which i'll get them next week. so far all i can say is that im not v happy with c-programming n engineering math results. :(
ok let me begin with c-programming. i got back the result on tuesday. btw for c-programming. it's not a term test but just like those kind of class test. the test takes up 15% of the module n i cant believe that i did so terribly for it. i was stunned n shocked when i received my result. :( i seriously dont know what happen. i studied for it. i understand the computer language. i just dont understand how on earth did i get this result. omg.. maybe this is an indication that i've got my concept terribly wrong. i'll need to see the lecturer to clear my misconception asap. die die must see her! if not im going to flunk this module. :(
as for engineering math. i did fairly well for it but im not satisfied. becos i should have gotten higher if i had went to see the lecturer b4 the test. kind of regret now. i can only blame myself for poor time management. i'll also need to see the lecturer to see my paper so that i know where i've gone wrong. actually she gave out the papers on monday for checking purposes but i missed that lesson as i overslept. haha. other than these 2. i did well for the rest of the modules.
anyway i met up with honey ytd at jurong centre for a short dinner. i just ordered a waffle as i wasnt hungry at that point of time while she ordered a set meal. after that we went to IMM to shop for a while b4 we went home. becos i have the bus pass so i tried n took bus from there n it took me 2 hrs plus to reach home. damn tiring man! i should have take the train instead. haha.
i think i'll stop here for now as it's kind of late alrdy. i've got my 1st lesson (math) tmr at 8am. dont worry i wont be late. lol! ok shall go n sleep now. good nights.

No More Slacking

2008-06-30T13:44:00.000+08:00

alright. im so damn slack today. been lazing for the whole day. played a few pc games in the afternoon. had a soccer game with bro after that in the evening. n blogging right now. haha. at the same time im also feeling v guilty. becos i've wasted a day. omg! :( this cannot happen again man. i need to be more disciplined n start doing more productive stuffs! im officially 18 yrs OLD. time for me to grow up n think like a man!
anyway i found a mini dream today (it's actually more of a goal. but let's call it a mini dream. so that it sounds wonderful). hehe! just some random thoughts n happen to think of it. n that mini dream is..i want to be able to support myself financially by the age of 19. in other words. totally no pocket $$ from my parents. ok it may sound silly. but i think it's great. becos i believe i can achieve it. n this belief will motivate n push me to work towards the mini dream. everything big starts small. tiny drops of water make the mighty ocean. so i believe that one has got to has a mini dream b4 one can have a HUGE dream. X)
ok im just writing down my thoughts. no offense k? by the way i almost fogot that today's david's bday. lol! honestly speaking. im not v good at remembering people's bday. anyway..happy bday to u david! :)
hmm that's all for now. i shall try n do my c-programming assignment later which is due on tuesday. i've delayed it for so long becos i dont understand a single shit. lol! at the mean time i can also kill time while waiting for the euro final (spain vs germany). alright got to go. see u.

27 June!

2008-06-28T08:06:00.000+08:00

hehe! this is the 1st blogger i've created. i manage to learn to edit the template somehow n i got this. lol! nice right? X)

alright i shall start off with today's date - 27 june. haha. this is the day im born n yup today's my bday. i met up with honey on wednesday to 'collect' my gift. lol! X) she made me a sweet card n bought me an esprit shirt n a mini cake too. after i had 'collected' the gift we went to a food court to eat the cake as a celebration. eventhough it's just a simple celebration but it's meaningful. n i want to take this chance to say..thank u honey!! i also want to thank those people who gave me happy bday wishes. people like david. that fat penguin (hui jun). so on n so forth. really appreciate your effort to rmb my birthdate. thank u! X)

i had my thermodynamics paper today as well. it's the last paper n fortunately the test was rather straight forward n simple. was able to do most of the questions. except for 2 idiotic ones. couldnt rmb the formula for 1 of the question while the other 1 i couldnt solve. but i think i should be able to get around 80-85 marks. i hope so. :D

i shall stop here for now. becos it's time for me to game. lol! been studying for the past few days. so now it's the time for me to RELAX! haha. bye! XD

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2008-06-26T17:57:00.000+08:00

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